Hello friends, hope all is well on your journey to health! So, I'm happy to report that I've made it one month and some change. Making it past one month is a big milestone for me. Why? Because I've been especially conditioned to think that monthly adjustments and massages are key to keeping free of another potential back related trauma. It's still astonishing to me, that all this time, my repressed emotions were to blame for my traumatic back experiences. A few insights: - Often I would get these moments of terror where my entire lower body would tremble and I'd have to go lay down, and do hundreds of stretches before feeling comfortable with moving again. This time I had one around my month milestone (perfect triggering time), and instead of worrying, I just sat comfortably and idly in my chair doing light meditation, concentrating on my emotions. I had to leave the room for a few minutes, asked my girlfriend not to be offended, I just needed a moment. It took a lot of discipline, but eventually, the tremble just disappeared, and I felt amazingly liberated. I could move without even the slightest worry. - Most days I barely second guess getting out of the car, out of my office chair, standing too long, sitting in a hard chair, slouching, lifting, I just don't even think about it. So liberating. - If I feel even the slightest pain, or hint of it, I tell myself this isn't really pain, it's in my head, and sometimes just asking "why?" to my repressed emotions is enough to quell the discomfort or fear. - Cracks and muscle pains (from rigorous activity) are normal part of life and aging. Often feared if I didn't have that "special crack", my nerve would be pinched, I've now since realized this is just my conditioning - Sometimes the pain attempts really hard to manifest itself in other areas. Sometimes my lower left back instead of my right bothers me, and I just laugh knowing why. - My canker sores I get every so often are relieved quickly - I think I'm better at managing an onset of hives - TMS is not the only symptom for dealing with repressed emotions, sometimes it may be some other compulsive activity, so a daily emotional/mental assessment is helpful So now, I'm looking for ways to manage and understand my emotions better. I've never really been into the whole "new agey, hippy, chakra and poses" thing, but the more and more I read/watch it seems the more I see how it aligns with our emotional well being. Ironically I came across this presentation about Emotional Anatomy: Anyone else find meditation and/or yoga helping them find balance in their lives? Would love to hear your experiences.