sadness

No matter where you are in the journaling process, beginner or seasoned vet, you’re going to find it helpful to look for patterns. Patterns might include repeated themes, repeated self talk, repeated emotions, or repeated thoughts. These patterns then, can give you breakthrough moments of...

Hello! I am at the 2 round of the program, the first time I decided to quit after a couple of weeks because I felt better. Mistake! Now, with my therapist I decided to start over, and I am ad day 4. Anyways, given that my second job is meditation advisor (that's teacher+ coaching), and I'm in...

I've been coming to terms with the fact that I have been holding in a LOT of sadness. But when I try to open myself up to feeling this sadness, it inadvertently also opens me up to a lot of fear and anxiety. Which is causing my symptoms to get WORSE. i.e. I just lost someone, and I am trying...

I've had so many revelations about myself, but I noticed I've been still searching deeper and deeper for answers. As of this moment in time, I have to be 100% honest with myself: I've always had the answers. I've ALWAYS known my issues stemmed from anxiety and fear (and oversensitized nerves)...

I will try to make it as short as possible, but my history with pain is long, and to be honest this post is more or less scream for help. So let starts from beginning(well, almost). I was always very happy kid. Right to the moment of middle school, when I start getting acne. I'm not talking...

So, what do you think about "owning" a crappy childhood? I'm looking to "accept and forgive" the various reasons I felt so neglected and pretty much used as a kid. A psychiatrist told me that a lack of bonding in infancy and early childhood is a very common element for adults in chronic or...

Can TMS symptoms be caused by deeply buried sadness and grief instead of rage in anger? My grandmother died 10 years ago and I've never finished grieving for her. My very first TMS symptom, started the after she died. This symptom involved burning nerve pain in my wrist and hands. Since then...

I just want to say thank you for this amazing service and support! Thank you Alan Gordon for providing so many amazing audio clips and tips to deal with all of this repressed emotion I've been carrying around as a gigantic pain in the butt for 18 years! I am crying as I write this because of...

Yesterday a memory kept surfacing of being age 3 or 4 and being left for the weekend with a caregiver. I remember that I finished dinner (spaghetti), licked my plate clean, and...feeling very proud of myself for being so conscientious...put it away in the cupboard. The caregiver said it was not...

I was just completing the activity that asks you to list things that make you angry and sad. I had a long list for sad but struggled to get anything for anger. I found that everything that I considered might be a source of anger seemed more like a source of sadness e.g. my husband is...

Hi All, I haven't posted in a while. Usually I don't spill my life story on the internet! But you all have become family to me! My TMS family and support! Over the Christmas Holiday my 90 year old Mom had fallen one day before Christmas Eve. I had to call an the paradmedics and she was in...

Dear friends, I keep on being astonish how much the behaviour of our parents influence us. It seems like their patterns of behaving has imprented into me and I carry it all the life with me. If I now see situations that hurt me in my adulthood I see the roots of my behaviour in my childhood, in...

So, for the last week of the programme, I did not do everything in it, but I did do affirmations after reading Louise Hay which helped me enormously. I would say that I am about 95% healed. I still get some mild burning in my back sometimes, and sitting late at night makes my sides a bit...