Recent content by wintermute

Thanks, Andrew and Gigi.

Skipped another day doing the SEP yesterday as I had lots of stuff to do. But the length of this post will probably be enough to cover 3 days, sorry people! :P Yesterday was a strange day. For the first time since 5 months I've spent the better part of the day at the computer, reading stuff...

I skipped a day reading and writing about TMS yesterday because my entire day was filled with other stuff. That's good I guess! I've also been making good progress in resuming my programming activities. Sometimes I can keep typing for more than 30 minutes, but sometimes the pain sets in rather...

I've been thinking about the power of words today. Yesterday my pain increased after doing some programming, and I was afraid I would wake up this morning with a lot of pain, as happened many times before after hvaing a bad day. Fortunately this did not happen. Most likely it was another...

Thanks for the encouragement! The article about outcome independence makes so much sense. I am indeed still very focused on the pain. When it decreases I immediately get optimistic, when it increases I immediately get pessimistic. Not good. I think this focus stems from the fact that financial...

Pessimism crept in today. I finally did some programming again, which was great, but then my pain increased a lot and I was disappointed. Of course I shouldn't expect a miracle cure, and there will be steps forward and backward, but I was still a bit disappointed. I also have to be honest and...

@Becca: actually, I've ordered that book at the same time I ordered The Divided Mind! Should arrive soon. As a major hypochondriac it immediately caught my eye. Wow, I hadn't seen the success story of Forest yet, but I'm going to read and view it today. I sent the evidence list (which is now...

In order to get my mind to accept that I might have TMS instead of RSI or CANS I'm looking for evidence. 1. Running/biking/swimming/pushups all temporarily decrease the symptoms, and on good days even makes them disappear for a while (until I cool down again). In other words, increase the...

It's as if I'm reading a description of myself. Thing is, you probably do have the programming that allows you to easily blend in new groups just like the others, it's just anxiety that's holding you back. Too much conscious thinking about it instead of simply doing it. After just a few of...

@Birdie: sounds like you've had to deal with some very debilitating problems. I'm sorry to hear you couldn't finish your thesis! Are you doing better now that you've learned about TMS? I've added the book of Nicole Sachs to my reading list. Reading how people specifically recovered from back...