Recent content by sdiddy

thanks all I will check it out and see if I can find some help Day 13. Dear God I feel the following I stopped believing in you. When my sister passed away. And my best friend lost his dad that year. And my wife had turned into a full blown abusive narcissist. And my dad was turning on me...

HI guys Im posting an update here. Its been bad. On top of the hip joint and tfl pain Ive had for 4 years the recent new back of the legs and knee pain has been continung. Its at the point where I can walk for maybe 15 minutes before the back of the legs and back of the knee start to "shut...

I am a perfectionist, and have extreme anxiety and fear, and it affects me in a lot of ways. I try to do everything perfect. I feel like I am being judged on the things I create, make, earn, my home, my body, my hair, my appearance, etc. I feel constantly burdened by worrying about external...

I dont know of any in LA other than dr schecter and my experience with him has only been so so. you have to pay out of pocket like $200 and get 15 minutes of time and it just doesnt seem that comprehensive. Id love to meet someone else. Any recommendations on how to find one? as for exercises...

When I was 35 years old my sister passed away. I FEEL this way about it: Kind of numb. Like I put that time in my life, those feelngs, memories, anger, resentment, etc in a box and shut it forever. I moved on with my life. I had to. What else could I do? My whole world came crashing down around...

thank you for the sympathy. and yes my childhood was torture in some ways but in other ways i found joy, like with friends, movies, books, basketball. the best gift I can give to the world is never repeating my dads mistakes on my little girl. shes so joyful and free and safe around me. its my...

Dear Ex Wife I feel so hurt and angry by what you did to me. I gave you 17 years. Pure love and devotion. I was a good man and great husband. Not perfect. I was too soft now I realize. I let you steamroll and bully me and didnt stand up for myself. thats on me. But I was still kind and noble. I...

I wish I knew how to do what youre saying. Im trying my best here but I dont know what I am not getting. Or is it that my hips are genuinely so messed up that even the tms aspect of it isnt the main issue? I dont know. Today after walking at famers market for only 15 minutes my legs both shut...

thank you all for the advice and kind words. Continuing my work: Are you having success at recognizing the emotions connected to your pain? If you have, how do these emotions make you feel? If not, what do you think is preventing you from doing this? Hmm I dont know that I am finding a direct...

Todays work: Dear Sid in your 30s. I feel bad for you. You got up everyday, and were a people pleaser. Good to your wife. Good to your business partner. Youd shave and put on your $50 suit and tie and =youd make tea and carpool with him to work and work hard every day. Youd make people laugh...

Thank you for the engagement. As for your question, I'm not sure I have the right answer so Ill just write what comes up. Although I do juggle a lot of things, multiple projects, a new career, being a great dad to an amazing girl by myself half the week, seeing my mom 3x a week, lifting weights...

Thank you both for participating here. Its helpful, even if a couple people support. Last night I had sex for the first time in quite awhile. Ive honestly stopped dating this whole year because 1. Im sick of the entitlement, narcissism, and transactional nature of LA dating 2. My standards for...

Apparently Im also to make these lists: Past Traumatic Events and Experiences My whole childhood was tough. Every night my dad would psychologically torture me. Lectures that sometimes last for 3 hours. Constant criticism and yelling. I was stresesd if he was ever home. In the morning he would...

Thank you all for the continued support. Im going to just keep posting my dailies here, just to get in the habit of it. I missed some days this weekend, just forgot to be honest so ill try and play catchup and do 3 days worth now. And to the people posting here, you are so appreciated. Ive had a...

Im not sure If Im supposed to keep posting my EPD in this one thread or make seperate threads? But Ill do one here for now: Day 2. I went for a walk with my daughter today and around the 10 minute mark my back of my legs and knees began shutting down again. I dont know what the fuck is going...