Recent content by sdiddy

thank you for the sympathy. and yes my childhood was torture in some ways but in other ways i found joy, like with friends, movies, books, basketball. the best gift I can give to the world is never repeating my dads mistakes on my little girl. shes so joyful and free and safe around me. its my...

Dear Ex Wife I feel so hurt and angry by what you did to me. I gave you 17 years. Pure love and devotion. I was a good man and great husband. Not perfect. I was too soft now I realize. I let you steamroll and bully me and didnt stand up for myself. thats on me. But I was still kind and noble. I...

I wish I knew how to do what youre saying. Im trying my best here but I dont know what I am not getting. Or is it that my hips are genuinely so messed up that even the tms aspect of it isnt the main issue? I dont know. Today after walking at famers market for only 15 minutes my legs both shut...

thank you all for the advice and kind words. Continuing my work: Are you having success at recognizing the emotions connected to your pain? If you have, how do these emotions make you feel? If not, what do you think is preventing you from doing this? Hmm I dont know that I am finding a direct...

Todays work: Dear Sid in your 30s. I feel bad for you. You got up everyday, and were a people pleaser. Good to your wife. Good to your business partner. Youd shave and put on your $50 suit and tie and =youd make tea and carpool with him to work and work hard every day. Youd make people laugh...

Thank you for the engagement. As for your question, I'm not sure I have the right answer so Ill just write what comes up. Although I do juggle a lot of things, multiple projects, a new career, being a great dad to an amazing girl by myself half the week, seeing my mom 3x a week, lifting weights...

Thank you both for participating here. Its helpful, even if a couple people support. Last night I had sex for the first time in quite awhile. Ive honestly stopped dating this whole year because 1. Im sick of the entitlement, narcissism, and transactional nature of LA dating 2. My standards for...

Apparently Im also to make these lists: Past Traumatic Events and Experiences My whole childhood was tough. Every night my dad would psychologically torture me. Lectures that sometimes last for 3 hours. Constant criticism and yelling. I was stresesd if he was ever home. In the morning he would...

Thank you all for the continued support. Im going to just keep posting my dailies here, just to get in the habit of it. I missed some days this weekend, just forgot to be honest so ill try and play catchup and do 3 days worth now. And to the people posting here, you are so appreciated. Ive had a...

Im not sure If Im supposed to keep posting my EPD in this one thread or make seperate threads? But Ill do one here for now: Day 2. I went for a walk with my daughter today and around the 10 minute mark my back of my legs and knees began shutting down again. I dont know what the fuck is going...

I did an MRI 4 years ago and it showed osteoarthritis in both hips, bursitis in both, and labrum tears. Ive just dealt with the constant pain for 4 years the best I can. PT, cortisone, psychotherapy, sauna, cold plunge, a bit of journaling. More recently the back of my legs to my knees has...

Thank you all for the advice and time. I saw a rheumatologist yesterday and he took blood but said my situation is bad. He read my MRI from a few years ago and ordered a new one but said I have necrosis, osteoarthritis, and a number of other issues and that hip replacement is inevitable. not to...

HI guys - Ive had pretty awful hip pain for about 3 years now. Tried everything from PRP to cortisone to PT and now a new doc doing tens and shockwave treatment, on top of hot yoga, cold pluges, mediation, therapy. tms related things. MRI from 3 years ago showed significant issues like...

Appreciate everyones reply. Can anyone recommend any practices that might help? Im already trying to meditate, journaling, and seeing a psychotherapist, on top of all the other things I do, sauna, cold plunge, compression, massage, etc. Any advice would be great. Somethin I should read, or any...

i didnt realize i made another post. probably was late at night or just stressed and forgot. so i went back and responded thanks.