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Samhopkins
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San Diego
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I Don’t have to work

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Samhopkins

New Member, Male, from San Diego

Working on myself Apr 11, 2018

Samhopkins was last seen:
Apr 12, 2018
  • My Story

    I’ve been through a major flair up. Two weeks now. I get these flair ups and it depresses me to no end. The weird thing with me is I have a horrible problem with sitting down and getting up. I am scared to sit at dinner or on chairs because of my pain. I am alone most of the time and I wish life would end for me. I have money I am in great shape from yoga. I eat light and healthy because of the fact I feel there is no way I could possibly be in a hospital bed if I were sick.. I need to get up and walk around because of the pain in my left leg from sciatica. My low back is sore all the time. It’s weird I have everything to live for and I would do anything to travel but I’m terrified of driving anywhere because the horrible pain comes out of know where.
    I understand my TMS comes from my stupid drug use and my weird sex crap I did on meth. I’ve had darn 3 mris on my back and left hip in the last 10 yrs. Slightly herrnated disks bla bla bla. My hip is fine for crying out loud.
    Shame, and unbelievable guilt.
    I stopped my drug use 4 yrs ago.
    I feel much better even writing this. I cry out of frustration It’s pethedic trust me. I found out TMS is my problem after reading John sarnos book. I’m very happy because maybe there is hope. I found out TMS is my problem only a few weeks ago by reading John Sarnos book. If you only knew my situation omg...
    I’ll say it again OMG and I feel sorry for My poor family..
    1. Samhopkins
      Samhopkins
      Working on myself
    2. Samhopkins
      Samhopkins
      FINALLY realizing it’s TMS
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  • My Story

    Gender:
    Male
    Location:
    San Diego
    Occupation:
    I Don’t have to work
    Introduction:
    My back goes out under stress. I get horrible spasms can’t get out of bed for days sometimes. This has been going on for 20 Years..
    I’ve seen darkness.. I’ve done shameful things on meth. compare myself to others and feel depressed.
    How And why I got myself into this mess I don’t understand.
    Diagnoses:
    Anxiety with depression..
    My entire back fused bla bla bla. Lol
    I’ve been through a major flair up. Two weeks now. I get these flair ups and it depresses me to no end. The weird thing with me is I have a horrible problem with sitting down and getting up. I am scared to sit at dinner or on chairs because of my pain. I am alone most of the time and I wish life would end for me. I have money I am in great shape from yoga. I eat light and healthy because of the fact I feel there is no way I could possibly be in a hospital bed if I were sick.. I need to get up and walk around because of the pain in my left leg from sciatica. My low back is sore all the time. It’s weird I have everything to live for and I would do anything to travel but I’m terrified of driving anywhere because the horrible pain comes out of know where.
    I understand my TMS comes from my stupid drug use and my weird sex crap I did on meth. I’ve had darn 3 mris on my back and left hip in the last 10 yrs. Slightly herrnated disks bla bla bla. My hip is fine for crying out loud.
    Shame, and unbelievable guilt.
    I stopped my drug use 4 yrs ago.
    I feel much better even writing this. I cry out of frustration It’s pethedic trust me. I found out TMS is my problem after reading John sarnos book. I’m very happy because maybe there is hope. I found out TMS is my problem only a few weeks ago by reading John Sarnos book. If you only knew my situation omg...
    I’ll say it again OMG and I feel sorry for My poor family..