Recent content by Ruth65

Hi @Baseball65 thanks for the words of encouragement! I tend to take all of my responsibilities very seriously (too seriously most of the time) and I think that's where a lot of my stress comes into play. I always feel like I could have done more, been better, tried harder, and so - of course...

Thanks @Diana-M for the kind words. Yes, some weeks are certainly more difficult than others, and this week was particularly hard. I will try to be extra nice to myself, but as you say, far easier said than done. Just knowing this community is here - and understands - has been a real...

I'm on Day 5, and I've had some successes, which I'm really quite excited about. But I've also had some setbacks and am dealing with the fear, stress, and anxiety that they bring about. -We had to put one of our cats down on Wednesday. He wasn't old, but he did have an inoperable mass that...

Hi @timmyg37 I am also pretty new to the program and feel the same way as you about exercising. You sound like you are in MUCH better shape than I am, though, but ultimately, it's the fear of hurting myself that keeps me from doing the things at the gym that I did before my pain began...

Thank you for sharing! Sometimes, the hardest things we can do as adults is to really see our parents as people, individuals in their own right. Only then will we begin to understand that they were dealing with their own demons just as we are now dealing with ours. It's a vicious cycle, but...

Hello everyone, Thank you so much for all the support so far - I can't tell you how much it means to me! I'm working through the lists and it seems like the more I write, the more I discover about the things in my life (past and present) that really affect me emotionally. I was abused as a...

Hi Edgerton, Glad to see you are sticking with the program! I was also tightly in control of my emotions until a few years ago when the stress of working a full-time job and running a business (while constantly being criticized by my angry husband - but that's a different story), that I began...

Thanks @JanAtheCPA ! I appreciate the positivity! :-)

Okay, really yesterday was Day 2, but I only finished the Day 2 exercises today. Honestly, my inner voice is there - telling me what a loser I am for not finishing everything on time, but after so many decades of listening that bastard of a voice, I'm finally at the point where I can tell it to...

Hi @Edgerton ! I am only on Day 2 (and I haven't done those exercises yet), so I have no idea how well this will work in the long run. But I can tell you that today, I went for my first "work out walk" in weeks and when I got a twinge in my lower back (which normally would have sent me right...

Hi @JanAtheCPA ! Thank you so much! I agree that knowing something intellectually and really feeling/believing it are two totally separate things, and that's what I struggle with. I love your comment that I need to believe that I deserve to recover - I will hold on to that one! Thanks again!

Hi @Baseball65 ! Thank you so much! I'm glad to hear that doubting is allowed as part of the process, and I will definitely examine those doubts and try to figure out where they're coming from. That's going to be difficult at first, but I will keep plugging away! Take care