Recent content by Nightowl

wow, I never even thought of that but it makes so much sense! I’ve decided to try to spend the next couple of weeks trying to calm myself in every way I can, but it’s hard to think of how to do that sometimes.

So true that telling anyone I’m better seems to guarantee a flare! I’ll check out Dr. Fanestil. Honestly, what bugs me isn’t even the pain but the anxiety it causes! I keep telling myself not to care but it’s so hard.

Thank you both! I was proud of myself, but this really hit me hard. I thought I had left the worst of it behind. I’m going to continue to do self-care today and remind myself that I’m safe. It is very hard to do when I’m so anxious, but I will do my best.

I just saw a post in here from a longtime member about a flare and their pain, and I wanted to piggyback my own. I have been doing so much better over the last few months. I wasn’t quite ready to write a success story, but I told my OB/GYN in mid December that I was 80% cured of my pain. Then...

I definitely wanted to give up yesterday! I'm glad we both hung in there! Thank you for that link! I think my biggest piece of evidence is still that I went through these exact symptoms before, went to all the doctors, and failed all their treatments... and eventually it just sort of faded...

I took a little break from the SEP because I took a vacation trip with my family. I had been so nervous about the trip, but I was so much better during! My symptoms were not gone, but they were at least 50% better, and I was able to sleep every night with no problem, in spite of an...

These are all great pieces of advice! Thank you, everyone! Today is a slightly better day. I am really trying to do everything I usually do, and if I do it with some discomfort, then so be it! I wrote a letter to myself this morning, and I think I realized that my work stress is having a...

These are all such great ideas. I did have an actual talk with her today about how sad I was about her leaving, but also that I've been having a lot of anxiety lately and we may not be able to travel together. I asked if she was disappointed by that, and she said she just felt bad for me. But...

I am trying to find a psychiatrist. I do have some sedatives from my PCP, but I try not to take them too often. I had a really bad experience with Lexapro in the past, but I'm desperate enough at this point that I'd consider trying something else.

On Friday, I was feeling great. I had been sleeping well almost all week, and I thought I was making major headway on my symptoms. Then on the weekend, I had a setback. I felt worse. And even though I amazingly still didn't sleep that badly, so not as bad as I've been at my worst, I was...

I checked out that book from Tamara Gurin. Very interesting stuff! After having a relatively good week where I practically thought I was cured at one point, I've been having a rough weekend, but I feel like every day I'm a little more convinced that this is TMS. The stories I've read in the...

Last week ended up being an overall better week for me after starting off badly. I had minimal to no episodes of panic at the end of the week. The vulvodynia isn't gone, but feels improved (although I did start using a new gel on Tuesday). Perhaps 50% better? I have limited my water intake...