Recent content by Mountaingoat123

This is me 100%. There is lots of fear. Then there is lots of anger because of the fact that I am suffering every day. And Sadness about the fact that I am not able to enjoy life as much as I did and I envy those who can. I am also very restless sometimes and when I am active I sometimes rush...

Happened to me too. Journalled about one traumatic event and my symptoms flared up. I thought: There we go. Another bullet point on my evidence sheet :D

I understand that. I am also impatient, but after 1.5 years in pain I have finally also come to the conclusion that I have done everything I can and I will now take my time to explore the psychological side. And if it is not helping me, so be it. at least I will have dealt with my emotions and...

Love this last sentence! I need to trust myself more than someone who has talked to me twice for 40min.

Yes this gives me a lot of confidence... it probably is just a conditioned response. Thanks for sharing this!

My symptoms are fluctuating in terms of when I have pain and what kind of sensation (tingling, stinging, numbness, heat) I feel and in which area of my S1 sciatic Nerve I feel it. But on the other hand some things are very consistent. E.g. I always have pain when standing up in the morning or...

Just a quick note. 2 days ago when I listed past events it was hard to start the list, but then more and more things emerged. But today when I picked one event to journal about I was really surprised how many negative emotions were coming to the surface... i did not think I had so many emotions...

I totally understand that... being uncomfortable can somehow become part of what is normal and part of ones identity. Changing the circumstamces can mean leaving a comfort zone

I totally agree. When you have whatever kind of serious illness you become somewhat a medical expert yourself and then you realize that even doctors only know so much... and never once has anyone looked at me as a person beyond my physical body... i believe it would be so important for doctors...

It is not so much that doctors have been saying disheartening things to me, but more so their indifference. When I was in serious pain and almost could not walk they just sent me home with painkillers, when they had to call an ambulance because my pain was so bad that I was screaming...they put...

Thanks for posting this video. For me it helps to see x rays or mri of people with severe diagnosis who have actually recovered. Because it makes me think my mri looks bad too, but if they can recover, I can surely do too. :-)

@WesternShores I am in a similar position. I really want to believe that it is TMS but looking at the MRI just makes it hard. Especially because my pain is always in the exact same places in the S1 dermatome. And some pain and in my foot it is occasional tingling with occasional numbness. So I...