Recent content by jokeysmurf

Thanks for the response, I think I vacillate between person 1 and 2. Admittedly I put a lot of pressure on myself, that for sure sneaks up on me a lot. I think one of my main things to look at is to be more caring and kind to myself, which I did a lot more when I felt worse but since feeling...

I'm bummed out that TMS reared its head and got me into the ER. The pain woke me up at 1am, I had not had pain in my rear for a long while now but I also had pain in my lower right abdomen. I did deep breathing and soothing and the pain in the rear went away then hours late my lower right...

@Cactusflower , thanks just being mindful is helping already with my tightness of my back. It's a small thing but even if I wake in the middle of the night I check with my lowerback and I can feel many times that I am in fact holding the pelvis forward in a tight position. Last night I spent...

@Cactusflower I have been thinking about what you called "gassing off" and it has been helping when I do exercise. I have also been addressing my resistance to things aka deep laziness and I think it's an emotional conflict. I have journaled about it - I have internal fear/pressure of not doing...

@Cactusflower , I have been there one time before for sure when I felt much worse but I was certainly pushing myself too hard physically but I was working less. Now I'm working more and doing less physically. But what I am getting from what you wrote feels comparable to me, in essence it relays...

That's a good question and I am trying to sort it out. It feels like a mixed bag, sometimes plain old resistance other times a form of fear. When it's fear it shows up kind of harsh after the work out, like regular soreness coupled with this feeling that I got hit by a car, like exaggerated...

I just wanted to give an update on my TMS, my sternum and stomach pain is gone and has been gone since my last reply to the post. I am doing some journaling and having some great insights. #1 lots of fear surrounding my early life, mostly around money and growing up in poverty. #2. Traumatic...

I spent sometime slowing this whole thing down. When the symptoms are there, I can feel a sense of urgency in my body. That is certainly fight or flight. This of course is a perceived threat, whether it's pressure from work, worrying about things that haven't happened, fearing the symptoms...

Update: I did some of the exercises in the Pain Recovery Program and I followed along in the videos only I was imagining they were about stomach pain and like magic things were instantly better. I was overjoyed and I enjoyed pain free eating for the next few days. And I thought, I know I will be...

Update: Well, the progress has been a little up and down, but that still feels promising. I can feel at times, that when my symptoms ramp up, there is indeed an internal feeling of fear or apprehension. Sometimes its subtle sometimes it's a vague internal worry about whatever. A lot of times my...

Thanks to all who replied. Something very strange happened the following two days. I was on a long drive to visit family and I had been having the intense and painful squeezing and gastritis type symptoms. This went on for hours and I thought maybe my morning coffee triggered it. As I drove on...

It's been a pretty long while since i have been on here to post. As of last Feb I started having tight squeezing at the base of my sternum. It came on at work during a very stressful week and it hasn't really left, it's gone down but it hasn't gone away completely. I'm doing the TMS work once...