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At 21 I had I small issue in my left leg I couldn't attribute to any injury. I went to a local chiropractor. Seemed to go away. A year later I got into the first serious relationship that couldn't ever be easily dissolved. The pain came back. In the lower back. Down the left leg. I went back to the chiropractor. Only this time, I ended up crawling for the next 6 months. We didn't have much so there wasn't much to lose. I eventually got pissed and decided I just HAD to go to work. I did. It sucked. I slowly got better. No pain at all. Two years later was the worst occurrence ever and also the quickest recovery. Absolutely nothing for almost 3 years. Until now. Now is the worst it has ever been. I recently landed a proper career. A forever job. Every time I spoke of how great the job was and how great money was and how great the benefits were, I would always end the bragging with how scared I was to go without benefits for the 6 month probationary period. Two weeks into the job I had a "twinge." Two weeks later I'm unable to walk, sit, work... So went to the doctor. Shots, steroids, bedside bottle of ibuprofen. No help. The pain moves around. I have numbness that I've never experienced. Weakness that is terrifying (my right calf WILL NOT WORK AT ALL.) After being tired of reading all the horror stories I decide to Google "success stories." Within the second thread I clicked on, someone suggested reading up on one Dr. John Sarno. The first thing I found was a story on 20/20 with Barbara Walters. I was instantly on board with his thinking. I bought his book on Saturday and was back to work on Monday (today actually.) I am not 100% percent symptom free. I know that I am still conditioned to think physically. It's difficult. I am 100% convinced that it is psychological, but I can't stop thinking physically. I keep trying to shuffle around to ease the pain. And I have to tell myself that isn't going to do anything. I'm not in the home stretch, but I am well along the way.