Recent content by eskimoeskimo

As it has gotten to the point at which I’m being called a selfish fool, a raging narcissist, and told that I’ll end up alone and demented, I think I better just go. Thank you to all who tried to help me, and I’m sorry to anyone whom my postings upset. I’m going to ask again that they all be deleted.

This has become incredibly personal and mean-spirited all of a sudden. The charges of malice and manipulation are false. My desire to get better is genuine, as are my doubts about TMS, as is my despair. I’m not reveling in any of it.

Yes both

Maybe this is negative bias but I see a lot more people not getting better than getting better. Success stories don’t seem to pop up often, and when they do they’re often along the lines of “I still have pains, but I’m not as afraid of them anymore and my life is improving.” (Which sounds like...

what change of thinking and how do you effect it?

I’m in real trouble here. The only way out I can see is suicide.

So are you saying it’s not what we do but what we think about?

Sheesh I just watched one of those Dan Buglio videos and then looked at the comments ... every single one of them sounds like me ... people who have read all the books and done the work and push on with life and try to believe the pain is temporary and yet the pain doesn’t go anywhere. On this...

Thanks for responding, @Idearealist. I'm sorry you went through that back then. Glad you're here to tell the tale. The rational part of my brain does understand that it's highly likely that it's just another 'thing.' Everyone who knows me thinks it's nothing. Actually I was afraid of tinnitus...

Thank you, Ludmilla, for your encouragement and understanding. I do definitely see how much this all resembles (or maybe just is) OCD. And reassurance-seeking would be considered a maladaptive compulsion. For a while I was so convinced that this was all best seen through the lens of OCD that...

Is that normal? Does everyone hear something if they pay close attention in a quiet room? I can't tell if what I'm hearing is normal (and I've magnified it by obsessing) or not.

My GP didn't see anything abnormal. I was too afraid to get a hearing test because I knew (as did my doctor) that I would obsess over any findings. And I haven't actually noticed any hearing troubles. But tinnitus is another one of those things, like chronic pain, that seems very little...

Hi Idearealist, I meant I'm worried that the tinnitus is evidence of damage which has already occurred, not that the tinnitus will do damage. I care a lot about music, so have a hard time tolerating the possibility of even minor hearing loss. I also worry about the tinnitus getting worse, and...

When it’s quiet I can hear a slight hissing or whooshing in my ears and it’s driving me crazy. Makes me worried my hearing has been damaged.

do you get tinnitus?