Oh, gosh, I remember Steve Sax! How humiliated he was. So young. So much promise. A golden boy. Glad to be reminded he did come back from his Dark Night of the Soul.
Recognizing when I am pressed for time, when I am pressuring myself to be perfect (often) (just five pounds thinner is the saddest of them), I am letting the bullets of the superego blow right through me. In fact, I am pulling the trigger. It's like a form of passive suicide.
Where I found solace and structure was in The Book of Recovery in a 12 step program for workaholics. It's about adrenaline addiction which cannot be fed without anxiety and fear, pressure, criticism and the three P's: perfectionism, procrastination and paralysis. Once frozen in paralysis, the TMS kicks in and the pain party is ON.
Today, I have a daily routine that places my ego, id and superego into the care of my greater Self. It took years to cultivate this Self and it's still a work in progress. Without community - what Buddha called Sangha - were cannot stay enlightened. I am grateful to this village that is so open and vulnerable and willing to awaken.
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Alan has completed the new Pain Recovery Program. To read or share it, use this updated link: https://www.tmswiki.org/forum/painrecovery/Dismiss Notice
