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She may be right. I have never seen a coach in 25+ years and I got over TMS. I too didn't have enough money (thank you God). I do have a lot of friends who have gotten better using Sarno and we have chats and support and challenge each other. That is awesome and really helpful....and doesn't cost any money

Yep. That was what I had. I also was a Dad in a very busy household with a lot of balls in the air constantly. Still got better.

I have been 'Angry' my whole life...since my Dad and Nanny died when I was 5. Left me with a miserable jet setting Mommy and siblings who were all vicious dope fiends. I ended up becoming one myself and ended up in jail, homes and detox....commiting crimes (some violent) to fund my habit.....and I STILL to this day have NO clue how much anger is down there because it is repressed.
I can only speculate. The best metaphor I have ever heard is Socrates' "Shadows on the cave walls"

Yep. Once this syndrome is going full speed, it is a Juke Ball of Conditioning , triggers, and perceptible REAL new anger generators. This program is a deconvolution. Piece by piece your gonna win back little parts of your life...sometimes there is Huge Normandy invasions, and sometimes you go Island hopping, but it's a ground game...the Ground is your life.

I have never 'journaled'... I read the text of the books circularly, have a scratch pad nearby (or scribble in the margins) I make lists of everything in my life that is or WAS a rage maker. WHY did it make me mad? What did that effect in me?

I actually use the 4th step inventory template from the 12 step program. The Most important part is how I responded to all of those rage makers when they happened. Long before I was a middle class dad struggling check to check, I had all sorts of stuff that just sat there and percolated. When I finally had a NEED for it to be repressed (being a good citizen, Dad, husband) it broke out into TMS. As soon as the Shadow on the cave wall started reflecting a little reality to me, the symptoms stopped. I didn't have to reach Nirvana or enlightenment,,,.just understand a little better than I did previously.