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It can be anger and it comes from the subconscious mind. Or fear but you don't feel it like real fear. This fear might come also from subconscious mind and could appear in certain life situations.
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I started to feel anger some time ago, when all the sex scandals came on the news. I was in pain right away and my sleep was affected. At the time I was not aware of my anger and had no idea about the relationship between repressed emotions (any emotions) ,pain and sleep. Then I felt other emotions, disgust, deep sadness, even fear. Sometimes I recognize the fear, it's palpable and I enter a state where I'm hipper vigilant about my surroundings. Other times, not so much, the fear might be there but I can't feel it. The fact is, sometimes is still difficult to "feel my feelings". This comes from my childhood so it's a learned behavior. A few weeks ago I found the 21 day - Program on this forum and started to work on it and...was able to "see" the connection between all these emotions and my pain. I was pain free for 3 days last weekend and it was great. But then the fear started to come back again, and then to increase. Gradually. And then the pain came back. With a vengeance. I don't care anymore now, plus it moves around, it's not just lower back pain, it's upper or middle or sometimes in the left leg. When I don't pay attention to it and just ignore it...it's much better. I work out, vacuum, basically ...I don't give a crap about the pain.

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