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When I took four weeks off work due to RSI in 2012, it hadn't occurred to me that my self-imposed pressure was causing my symptoms. Once I started my TMS healing journey I realised it wasn't the demanding client and the impossible deadlines; it was my own inner bully creating this pressure for me to achieve. I realise now that nobody was holding a gun to my head except me. Now in a new and stressful project, I'm aware of moment-to-moment thoughts, and using affirmations to get me through stressful days. So far so good!

Through TMS healing, I also became aware of other destructive behaviors I had in the past. During my singing days, I desperately wanted recognition for my singing, and would swot up on entire scores prior to rehearsal so that my singing would be noticed. This came from my desire to please my father (also a classical singer), who never showed his appreciation. I have forgiven myself and him, and am cautious of not repeating this behavior now in other areas.

Dr Emmett Miller's book "Deep Healing" and audios such as "I am" have helped me enormously. During periods of recovery I often felt ashamed of behavior I had exhibited. Dr Miller's "Rewriting the script" tool helped me overcome this. He writes:

"As you look at a scene from your past, view yourself as you would watch an actor on a screen. Now rewind that scene, but this time rewrite your script… imagining how it would look to see yourself responding to the situation with behavior that is more acceptable to you. Relive this scene now… responding in the way you want to respond…and enjoy feeling in charge of the situation. You feel good about your new behavior… and how people around you may be reacting to it. You feel comfortable and satisfied as you handle things just the way you would like…let this scene complete itself now…and as you leave it, let yourself feel really good about the way you handled it."

This rewriting the script tool has given me the courage to reach out to my father after 24 years of avoiding him. This simple technique that has had a profound effect on my life and TMS recovery.