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I do have a question though. My reaction to pain is much less scary than it used to be, since learning all this. However, when it kicks in, i still take meds. (mostly gabapentin, and weaker painkillers). Basically, i have to, because i'm expected to still work my job, and i cant do that when in bad pain. So yes, i still pop meds whenever the pain strikes, but i feel i'm doing it simply to feel better, but i'm not expecting that the meds are "fixing" a problem. So even though i'm a lot less scared of the pain, i worry that my habit of popping a pill whenever it comes on, is reinforcing fear.
Like i said, i still need to work my job, and participate in life. Having pain in your crotch, rectum, and urinary tract, is some of the most awful pain i've ever had to deal with, worse than any other body part pain. It's not scary anymore, but if i dont take pain meds, i go into wounded animal mode and start snapping at my bf to "stay away from me!!!" then i go into an awful place (like i said, there's something especially hideous when that part of the body is burning). I hope i can beat this, while still taking meds, as long as i know i'm only masking pain, just to function. I know it's TMS.