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Actually that inner dialogue is a sign. It demonstrates how unkind you are with yourself. Also it takes time to assimilate the wisdom in this program. It's not as simple as reading about a practice, trying it a handful of times and then deciding it doesn't work. Recovery is all about learning to care for yourself and nurturing these disciplines.

Somatic tracking is the key to healing. It works especially well when combined with cognitive soothing. I cannot emphasise enough how important it is to make these practices your own. You have to be with them, really understand them, grant them time to become familiar, begin to recognise the many ways your ego will buck and fight against them and the many and varied manifestations of self-destructive behaviours you harbour. All these things take time, personal insight and commitment. To declare that something is not working after a couple of tries, a couple of days or a couple of weeks is a powerful lesson. No one else can translate this information into deep knowledge and understanding for you. Only you can do that. All we can do is try our level best to explain it in different ways and trust that one way, one day it leads to an epiphany. Every single person on this forum has been where you are. You can recover, all the tools and ways and means are here. You simply have to give your head a holiday and give yourself to the process knowing that it will be tough at first yet trusting that it gets easier.