In all over body pain for many years rheumatologist thinks fibromyalga, psoriatic arthiritis (blood tests, MRIs, etc, all clear). I discovered TMS this morning in an instagram post, I read as much as I could about it and ordered some books, I've been on the verge of tears all day, pain is really going for it today and I feel very anxious (almost to the point of panic attack and not had one of those since I was 19 (now 51)) just reading about it all - I feel so very emotional and I don't even know why, but it all resonates so badly with me and I'm really quite scared and overwhelmed how could I even begin to open up and acknowledge what is deep inside me, it is a monster(s) I am not sure I can face. Where do I even start?