TMS recovery Day 8 CPPS

[KobeJordan]

Im on day 8 now of the SEP and I hate to admit but i haven’t been consistent on doing it daily. This is what im trying to change.

What i find so interesting is that consciously I know that my CPPS pain (chronic pelvic pain syndrome) is exclusively from my negative thought pattern and loop that ive gotten myself in. A year ago, I thought that there was something physically wrong with me and of course my pain was much worse.

My pain now is much more tolerable which im thankful for but now I’m still avoiding social situations and I must force myself to do them rather than look forward to them because I’m worried ill have a flare in pain.

Im wondering if anyone feels like it’s a constant battle with their conscious and unconscious mind? My conscious mind believes the TMS theory because ive sen for myself that when im in a good headspace, the pain is either very tolerable or gone. When im in a neagive and anxious head space (which can be pretty often) the pain is much worse.

The anger part of TMS is interesting, If I have a fit of rage or anger, the pain is GONE. Of course I don’t want to be angry all the time but the pain sucks too. I understand the concept of repressed rage now and I realize I have lots of it, I just don’t know how to change the way I think and the way I don’t express my rage (in a healthy way).

 

[JanAtheCPA]

Welcome to the forum @KobeJordan.

Im wondering if anyone feels like it’s a constant battle with their conscious and unconscious mind?

That would be a resounding YES from everyone. For some of us more than others, but yes, it is kind of constant.

The way to think of the brain mechanism that we call TMS (also referred to as MBS - MindBody Syndrome, and PPD - PsychoPhysiologic Disorder) is this:

Our brains were designed to think negatively, and to always be on the lookout for danger. This kept our primitive ancestors alive just long enough to breed and raise the next generation. Their lives were short, and the fears and dangers they needed to worry about were few, and extremely tangible.

Fast forward to the modern era, and what we're dealing with is the SAME BRAIN MECHANISM - in a world in which most of us are lucky enough to live safe lives, for a LONG time, during which time we start worrying at a VERY young age about things that are very intangible - like our future education, and jobs, and money. That's bad enough, but especially in the last 30 years, we are constantly bombarded by information overload. And guess what - most of that information overload is negative - because THAT'S HOW WE'RE STILL WIRED.

Basically - give yourself a break. Be gentle with yourself, learn to love yourself, give yourself a whole bunch of credit for the recovery you're already experiencing, and have faith that you CAN achieve even more. Maybe stop with the newsfeeds and the social media.

So you're not doing one day of the SEP every day. That's okay! As long as you're incorporating your new knowledge every day. Which it sounds like you are.

Good luck, and keep posting!

~Jan