sleepyjay
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Hi everyone,
just thought i'd write down some thoughts i have about my new knee pain to get a clearer structure of it in my head since journaling doesn't seem to help and maybe someone else has some advice to offer.
So i'm going on a skiing vacation with friends in 2 weeks and was already a bit nervous if i'd be physically fit enough for it, so we went to practice a week ago and i fell down and hurt my knee, probably a strain of the ligament. I still went for 2 more rounds before the pain was too intense, so i thought "alright, just overstretched my ligaments a bit", got home iced it and rested for a day.
Now a bit of background knowledge: besides being already pretty anxious about that whole trip, another thing that's been in the back of my mind is the skiing accident of my mother. She had a pretty bad one before my birth with several surgeries and is now, all these years later still in heavy pain because of it (i'm pretty sure at least some of it is TMS because the surgeries didn't help at all). So of course i'm pretty scared of a skiing accident and hurting my knee. That's why i thought my pain was TMS and started to resume activities.
But still, i had doubts that maybe i should rest it for longer, especially since i hurt my knee in a similar way (though not skiing but also by twisting my knee) and that turned chronic (definitly TMS but still struggling with it).
Still, i pushed through the pain, trying to get outcome independent but it just got worse, so i've decided to give it a bit more rest but it's been 3 days and it seemingly just gets worse, to the point where i find it hard to walk.
I'm so mad at myself because that accident was so stupid and for not resting it properly and now i fell down the TMS-rabbit hole, sifting through this forum and looking for knowledge about strained/pulled ligaments. I know at least some of the pain is TMS, since i also have pain in parts of my leg i didn't hurt but i'm just so scared of seriously hurting myself and going on the vacation and just wasting it.
Adding to that my aunt told me she also had a skiing accident and didn't think anything about it (she has a pretty high pain tolerance), but after being convinced to go to the doctor it turned out her ligaments were torn. And a friend of mine hurt his ankle and just found out (after also having to be convinced to go to the doctor) he partially tore his ligament.
So of course i'm freaking out. I decided to try to get a doctors appointment before the vacantion, just to get some peace of mind but i probably won't get one anyway since it's quite short notice.
Honestly, i read so often on this forum that our knees, ligaments and muscles aren't that weak but it's so hard when it feels like everyone's constantly having serious problems and it gets medically reinforced (for example that friend of mine is supposed to wear a brace and refrain from straining his ankle for 2 months).
Anyone having any similar stories or advice?
just thought i'd write down some thoughts i have about my new knee pain to get a clearer structure of it in my head since journaling doesn't seem to help and maybe someone else has some advice to offer.
So i'm going on a skiing vacation with friends in 2 weeks and was already a bit nervous if i'd be physically fit enough for it, so we went to practice a week ago and i fell down and hurt my knee, probably a strain of the ligament. I still went for 2 more rounds before the pain was too intense, so i thought "alright, just overstretched my ligaments a bit", got home iced it and rested for a day.
Now a bit of background knowledge: besides being already pretty anxious about that whole trip, another thing that's been in the back of my mind is the skiing accident of my mother. She had a pretty bad one before my birth with several surgeries and is now, all these years later still in heavy pain because of it (i'm pretty sure at least some of it is TMS because the surgeries didn't help at all). So of course i'm pretty scared of a skiing accident and hurting my knee. That's why i thought my pain was TMS and started to resume activities.
But still, i had doubts that maybe i should rest it for longer, especially since i hurt my knee in a similar way (though not skiing but also by twisting my knee) and that turned chronic (definitly TMS but still struggling with it).
Still, i pushed through the pain, trying to get outcome independent but it just got worse, so i've decided to give it a bit more rest but it's been 3 days and it seemingly just gets worse, to the point where i find it hard to walk.
I'm so mad at myself because that accident was so stupid and for not resting it properly and now i fell down the TMS-rabbit hole, sifting through this forum and looking for knowledge about strained/pulled ligaments. I know at least some of the pain is TMS, since i also have pain in parts of my leg i didn't hurt but i'm just so scared of seriously hurting myself and going on the vacation and just wasting it.
Adding to that my aunt told me she also had a skiing accident and didn't think anything about it (she has a pretty high pain tolerance), but after being convinced to go to the doctor it turned out her ligaments were torn. And a friend of mine hurt his ankle and just found out (after also having to be convinced to go to the doctor) he partially tore his ligament.
So of course i'm freaking out. I decided to try to get a doctors appointment before the vacantion, just to get some peace of mind but i probably won't get one anyway since it's quite short notice.
Honestly, i read so often on this forum that our knees, ligaments and muscles aren't that weak but it's so hard when it feels like everyone's constantly having serious problems and it gets medically reinforced (for example that friend of mine is supposed to wear a brace and refrain from straining his ankle for 2 months).
Anyone having any similar stories or advice?
