Day 7 Self Care Day: Facing a New Challenge!

The YouTube video linked in the Day 7 program really felt like it was speaking directly to me — especially the part about being in an “activated” state. I’ve always been tense, trying to do everything perfectly and avoid making mistakes. I believe that’s how I developed insomnia and anxiety. Honestly, when I read that "Self Care" itself was the assignment, my TMS brain immediately jumped to thoughts like, “How do I rest? How can I rest the 'right' way?” Haha — it was so typical of me that I had to laugh.

Because I didn’t sleep well last night, I ended up taking several naps during the day — and when I woke up, I received some great news.

I had applied for a youth career support program and received the news that I was accepted. It’s not exactly for people who are ready to jump straight into a job, but more for those like me — people who’ve lost confidence in their ability to work, or who have given up on job searching for a long time. It’s designed to help participants regain the courage to re-enter the world. The program runs once a week for 8 hours over the course of six months, and we receive a small government subsidy once a month. It includes things like group activities to build communication skills, relaxing crafts, and lectures that offer practical job advice.

I thought, “Maybe I can handle something like 8 hours a week.” It seemed like the most suitable way for me to gently step out of my comfort zone. During the pre-interview with a program staff member, I shared my story pretty honestly. They asked me several times whether I was really physically well enough to complete the program without dropping out halfway. I told them yes — though I didn’t mention that it’s because I believe in Dr. Sarno!

Still, I feel a bit afraid. I’ve tried getting motivated and taking on new challenges in the past, only to have the pain return and force me to quit. But I’m choosing to trust the strength of recovery I’ve felt in myself over the past few weeks. The program starts next Tuesday, and since my social circle has grown very small due to my health, I’m actually looking forward to meeting new people.

This is exactly the kind of moment when I feel tempted to try and do SEP “perfectly,” but I’m reminding myself to be kind to myself and to stay relaxed.

 

You know if you’re honest with yourself— is it really the pain you dread or the fear? I looked at that really hard the other day, for me, and realized it’s the fear. You won’t have as much fear this time because you know what’s going on! I know you can punch through this wall. This sounds like the coolest program for you! Literally perfect! I’m really happy you got accepted to this program! And it’s great you found it and applied.

 

Ha ha! I can totally relate to this in so many ways!

That's so great about the program! AND, yes, please be kind to yourself - maybe one additional way to do that is to remind yourself that it is okay NOT to be relaxed at times too - all part of myriad of emotions.
Sending good thoughts to you as you embark on this exciting opportunity!