saltyessentials
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Have you been overly critical of yourself lately? How and why have you done this?
I have indeed been critical of myself lately. Around all the things I "have" to do and so little time to do them in--but I must! I must!
I only have about three hours in the evenings after work before bed time. And I cram a lot into them. Currently I've been (trying to cram) cramming my meditation time, this SEP, the daily body/feeling exercises the therapist assigned to me, time on the treadmill, and other reading/learning related to my spiritual practice. Along with dinner and quality time with the wife and whatever "down time" I can find.
Well, it's way to much. But I was trying to force myself to keep up (do it all and do it all perfectly) and/or getting angry/down on myself when I couldn't. Which is pretty typical of me--setting ridiculously high expectations for myself.
The good news is that I managed to come to my senses and realize there's NO WAY to do all that in a few hours. So I decided to focus on the SEP and the therapist's exercises during the workday evenings, and see what I can do to add some of the other stuff in on the weekends when I have more time.
It cracks me up that it took me a week to figure that out.
Oh, and on top of all that, a crack has appeared in my do it all and do it all perfectly persona--I actually decided to split day nine up into--gasp--TWO days. (I know!) Did the activity and journaling last night and the rest tonight. There's hope for me yet!
I have indeed been critical of myself lately. Around all the things I "have" to do and so little time to do them in--but I must! I must!
I only have about three hours in the evenings after work before bed time. And I cram a lot into them. Currently I've been (trying to cram) cramming my meditation time, this SEP, the daily body/feeling exercises the therapist assigned to me, time on the treadmill, and other reading/learning related to my spiritual practice. Along with dinner and quality time with the wife and whatever "down time" I can find.
Well, it's way to much. But I was trying to force myself to keep up (do it all and do it all perfectly) and/or getting angry/down on myself when I couldn't. Which is pretty typical of me--setting ridiculously high expectations for myself.
The good news is that I managed to come to my senses and realize there's NO WAY to do all that in a few hours. So I decided to focus on the SEP and the therapist's exercises during the workday evenings, and see what I can do to add some of the other stuff in on the weekends when I have more time.
It cracks me up that it took me a week to figure that out.
Oh, and on top of all that, a crack has appeared in my do it all and do it all perfectly persona--I actually decided to split day nine up into--gasp--TWO days. (I know!) Did the activity and journaling last night and the rest tonight. There's hope for me yet!
