chantal0123
New Member
Hi there everyone,
I'm a 33 yrd old female who's been in "pain" for the last 2 yrs.
It started with a really bad shoulder/neck pain.
At that time (2011-2012), my new work environment was a highly stressed with a lot of pressure area.
I can also now recognize that I was putting so much pressure on myself.
From 2008 to 2011, life was a mess. My parents were not doing well emotionally.
My mom was cheating on my dad, I knew about it and I took it all on my "shoulders".
I wanted to save them. My world came crumbling down when they separated in 2011.
Being an only child, I felt a huge responsibility to take care of them.
Shortly after, I started this new a position at my work (2011).
I felt validated, I felt needed and it felt good. Everyone called me the superstar!
I had to rise up and exceed their expectations! Things weren't great. People were unhappy and leaving. We were short staffed so I took it all on my "shoulders". I felt responsible for everything.
But the superstar had to keep going - she is no quitter. Until I began to get symptoms.
One day I got numb on one side of my body. After several tests and seeing a neurologist, everything was clear. Diagnostic - stress. I took a few days and went back to it. I then started to have neck/shoulder pain.
I would wake up in the morning and I couldn't move. It was so painful.
This lasted for several months.
In February of 2012, my body was shutting down so was my mental state.
I was diagnosed with a burn-out - borderline depression.
I stopped working and I've quit my job. I started my own business and my body felt better.
Come January 2013, my shoulder/neck started acting up again. But now, I was confused.
My life is so much better. One month later, I started getting lower back pain - out of the blue!
Never had back pain in my life!! Went to see a physio - he then told me that it seemed to be a bulging disc!
Yikes! Fear set in and I started to feel worst. I could barely walk at some point.
Then the miracle came when I came across a post on the net about the book "Healing Back Pain - the mind body connection" by Dr Sarno. I read the book in one sitting. I cried. God did I ever cry.
I realized then & there that I was making myself sick. Back pain went away after I say 2-3 weeks (End of Feb 2013).
Now in May 2013, I woke up one morning and sat in my bed and BAM - left hand became numb (pinky & ring finger). I started physio, saw my doctor, saw an osteopath. All say its an ulnar nerve compression.
Its still numb. It never goes away.
So then I thought "Hmmm wonder if its TMS related...yet again".
It seems like it could well be.
I need help in finding out what I should be doing. I've read about an intensive writing program from Dr Sarno but can't seem to find it online. I've only read the book I mentioned (healing back pain) as of now.
Any help would be greatly appreciated!!!
Blessings,
Chantal
I'm a 33 yrd old female who's been in "pain" for the last 2 yrs.
It started with a really bad shoulder/neck pain.
At that time (2011-2012), my new work environment was a highly stressed with a lot of pressure area.
I can also now recognize that I was putting so much pressure on myself.
From 2008 to 2011, life was a mess. My parents were not doing well emotionally.
My mom was cheating on my dad, I knew about it and I took it all on my "shoulders".
I wanted to save them. My world came crumbling down when they separated in 2011.
Being an only child, I felt a huge responsibility to take care of them.
Shortly after, I started this new a position at my work (2011).
I felt validated, I felt needed and it felt good. Everyone called me the superstar!
I had to rise up and exceed their expectations! Things weren't great. People were unhappy and leaving. We were short staffed so I took it all on my "shoulders". I felt responsible for everything.
But the superstar had to keep going - she is no quitter. Until I began to get symptoms.
One day I got numb on one side of my body. After several tests and seeing a neurologist, everything was clear. Diagnostic - stress. I took a few days and went back to it. I then started to have neck/shoulder pain.
I would wake up in the morning and I couldn't move. It was so painful.
This lasted for several months.
In February of 2012, my body was shutting down so was my mental state.
I was diagnosed with a burn-out - borderline depression.
I stopped working and I've quit my job. I started my own business and my body felt better.
Come January 2013, my shoulder/neck started acting up again. But now, I was confused.
My life is so much better. One month later, I started getting lower back pain - out of the blue!
Never had back pain in my life!! Went to see a physio - he then told me that it seemed to be a bulging disc!
Yikes! Fear set in and I started to feel worst. I could barely walk at some point.
Then the miracle came when I came across a post on the net about the book "Healing Back Pain - the mind body connection" by Dr Sarno. I read the book in one sitting. I cried. God did I ever cry.
I realized then & there that I was making myself sick. Back pain went away after I say 2-3 weeks (End of Feb 2013).
Now in May 2013, I woke up one morning and sat in my bed and BAM - left hand became numb (pinky & ring finger). I started physio, saw my doctor, saw an osteopath. All say its an ulnar nerve compression.
Its still numb. It never goes away.
So then I thought "Hmmm wonder if its TMS related...yet again".
It seems like it could well be.
I need help in finding out what I should be doing. I've read about an intensive writing program from Dr Sarno but can't seem to find it online. I've only read the book I mentioned (healing back pain) as of now.
Any help would be greatly appreciated!!!
Blessings,
Chantal
