Need support, major relapse

[MIsty152]

Hi everyone,

I am having a major relapse and I just cannot relaxe. A couple of months ago I experienced several big life events such as a miscarriage and my nervous system got out of whack completely. Due to the pregnancy I developed pudendal neuralgia which got even worse do to the life events that I could barely got through the day. I still had a lot of repressed emotions because a couple of years ago I only focused on the rage and not on the other emotions such as guilt. So I still had alot to process. I worked through these emotions and feel a bit better now, i am functional and the pain is much better manageable, but I am scared as hell now.

The flare ups where so intense that they traumatised me. I know it is tms and I am not necessarily afraid of the pain but more of the consequences such as losing my freedom. I had built a life that was really great before the flare up and I am so afraid that I will lose all of that. Its like the pain is connected to this fear now and now I am afraid I wont get better because of this. I am already seeing a tms coach again so that is step one. And thinking of doing emdr to lose those emotional images of the time of the major flare up.

Which tms guru can help me? I am in pain 24/7 with no break

Misty152.

 

[Cactusflower]

Hi @MIsty152
I have some fears like you do, and am trying EMDR, but am at the very beginning of treatment.
I am also trying EFT on my own via YouTube videos (there are lots). You have now identified some of what has held you back, and can move forward.
Remembering that this is a journey is important, and I’m so sorry for your loss and struggles. You simply need more healing time, time to care for yourself.
Several TMS practitioners suggest using what is a powerful motivator such as wanting freedom to propel your healing. Instead of thinking about your loss of freedom, maybe you could begin using EFT to remind that fearful brain that it is safe to desire freedom.
I do also recommend EMDR with someone well trained who is willing to go “by the book” meaning to follow all the guidelines (my therapist uses text book print outs as her guide so she keeps on track). You’ll know if it feels right for you after a few sessions.