My neck fucking hurts

What the fuck is this. I dont even know if its tms but i wake up and my neck and traps they can barely move and tbey hurt so bad

I had these neck attacks when i was younger. Like 'cant move neck and head at all' level bad. I wonder if it was and is tms. Anyway i notice that its making me incredibly moody — if i could move at all id definitely be a safety hazard.

 

"if I could move at all it would definitely be a safety hazard"

Ah, TMS!
Here are some great rules to follow if you want to work through TMS.

Continue TMS education. I'm not sure if you've read a book by Dr. Sarno? You've mentioned you are trying Claire Weekes, who writes about anxiety - but Dr. Sarno writes about the condition of TMS. For most people one reading isn't enough, it can take a few or many. Even just reading and re-reading his 12 daily reminders is a great practice, it's where we place thoughts over placing them on symptoms. Remember that there are some parts we work towards (eg. getting back to regular daily life) and don't have to do all of these things perfectly right way.

#9 is important I will not be concerned or intimidated by the pain = Stop complaining about symptoms. Period. No being a total victim to them, no suggesting they control you, none of that. Not at home, not here. Have you ever heard the term "you are what you eat?". When you discuss the symptoms as things that control you or even discuss them period you give them substance and weight.

Symptoms come and go. When the body is anxious it will be tense. When we work though TMS it can create new, more, old symptoms etc. it is a sign of success that the mind is realizing we are beginning to understand the mechanism and are working towards changing old habits and defaults. Thinking about these things can be both mentally and physically uncomfortable. Part of TMS work is learning to listen to our bodies but sit with the discomfort quietly, listening to it, being with the anxiety and the tension. You don't have to like it (who does!) but it will pass.


Dr Sarno 12 Daily Reminders

1. The pain is due to TMS, not to a structural abnormality
   
   
2. The direct reason for the pain is mild oxygen deprivation
   
   
3. TMS is a harmless condition caused by my repressed emotions
   
   
4. The principal emotion is my repressed ANGER
   
   
5. TMS exists only to distract my attentions from the emotions
   
   
6. Since my symptom is basically normal there is nothing to fear
   
   
7. Therefore, physical activity is not dangerous
   
   
8. And I MUST resume all normal physical activity
   
   
9. I will not be concerned or intimidated by the pain
   
   
10. I will shift my attention from pain to the emotional issues
    
    
11. I intend to be in control-NOT my subconscious mind
    
    
12. I must think Psychological at all times, NOT physical.
    

 

Could it, thinking optimistically, possibly be the symptom imperative? Youre right I shouldnt think about my symptoms at all but I weirdly love playing tms bingo. It it makes me feel more like a seasoned vet

I have so many worries about going back to life but it feels peaceful to have decided to only worry about them when it gets relevant.

I've weirdly been doing really great today soundwise. It makes me feel proud even though I know how much work I've done before without getting better. In a perfect world I'd be proud of planting the tree, not the fruits they bear.

Some TMS introspection