Journospeak Advice?/ Repressed Emotions Advice?

I have struggled with atypical trigeminal neuralgia for the past year. I have been journospeaking for 5 months and a few insights etc around various topics have arisen but nothing major.

I'm now 49 and did 3 rounds of unsuccessful IVF 8 years ago alone (with a sperm donor) and have always found it rather odd that I have never shed one tear over the fact that I didn't have children though explained this to myself with the rationale that it must mean that I never really wanted the children as I wasn't upset. Today in my journospeak I cried for an hour over the children that I never had and the brutal anguish surrounding the whole IVF process. As strange as it sounds until today I had absolutely no idea how much hurt was inside of me. I'm pretty gobsmacked as to what was hidden/ repressed. This is my first major journospeak breakthrough and I'm now feeling very raw. Is it a case of now self soothing and telling myself i am safe etc? ie how should you deal with such a huge opening of emotions. Any advice hugely appreciated.