I feel like Chicken Shift!

Chicken Shift is a feeling and not who I am. Can't believe it's in my vocabulary, perhaps a feeling hologram.

Chicken Shift because I don't want anyone to know. I don't want anyone to know. I don't want anyone to know. I feel like a failure. Check that out. Ok to feel like a failure if no one is to know. Damn, I digging more holes, more stories unfold.

My mind says I'm not trying to hard so maybe I am. I'm constantly second guessing myself to avoid a jam. My secret is contemplating temporary relief. It breeds anticipation, false hope, and grief.

It was just this morning in meditation I was in a timeless Universe with all needs met. Now at the end of my day I'm caught up in this illusion of it's taking to long. Wait a minute this is not who I am.

Oh I get it. I used Shift to be the nice word. It's not who I am it's what I need to do right now. This Chic must Shift.