I don’t think it’s bad to present a good face for something you are presenting. But I suppose it depends on what you wanna do with your content. I also find that when Contin creators are honest, people usually embrace it. Because most people can relate to the ups and downs of daily life. Personally, I think the more important issues to figure out what is causing your sadness and how to get in touch with that, so you can experience more genuine peace and then perhaps even at some point share some of this with your audience. Again, I’m not sure what kind of content you are creating. Creative people have ups and downs, so you are not alone. Don’t stop pursuing what you want to do, because there is happiness in that in the long run.