Helenback, so glad you are here!
I am slowly doing the SEP and I am learning alot about how to heal and why I have tms and/or equivalents. Spend some time reading threads here and you will find wisdom, encouragement and insights into yourself. There is hope, healing and laughter. Opening up here has actually helped me feel things I know I have feelings about, but couldn't get to while journaling. I think because it was going out to real people, rather than sitting hidden in my drawer.
I hope what you need you also find. So many different people here, but they are getting better! Thats the proof.