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Thanks for your question, walllc643.
Your description of the manifestations of your symptoms and their triggers, along with the lack of any truly significant structural findings, seem pretty close to a slam dunk to me. However, I am familiar with how the TMS brain tends to work and understand how hard it can be to find certainty.
You seem to be compiling evidence for a mind body diagnosis very successfully. That said, I know how hard this final step can be. Your brain will tell you things like "what if you're wrong?" or "maybe the doctors missed something."
There is inherent risk in embracing a psychogenic approach to your pain. I cannot argue this. I can however point out that there is also risk in not accepting TMS as the cause when you have ample evidence to support it. You risk your quality of life and your overall physical and mental health.
If you cannot make the leap of faith via the rule-out method, I would implore you to book a flight to a city where you can see a TMS physician who can give you an official diagnosis. It may set you back some but what is more important than your health? In my opinion, it is a no-brainer if it could potentially provide you with the certainty that you seek.
With TMS, ambivalence equals pain. It is imperative that you find the confidence to proceed with your recovery. It's ok if you have periods of uncertainty that you work through but you need a foundation of fundamental belief to build on.
I have worked with many clients who have travelled to see a TMS physician and got their diagnosis. For many, this was the final piece of the puzzle and the beginning of their recovery. For a few, their brains still tried to devalue or dismiss the diagnosis. I guess what I'm saying is that ultimately, it has to be your choice and your belief. It must come from within.
I wish you the best in your journey and I hope that you find the certainty that you seek. I strongly believe that when you do, it will be the launching point for your sustained recovery.
Best,
Derek
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