Days where it's completely gone...

Trying to make sense of how I can have 10/10 symptoms and then the next it is 100% gone. This happened twice last week. Tuesday and Friday my symptoms were completely gone for the day, after being bad Monday and Thursday. I just find it so bizarre. I was definitely distracted those days and had a feeling of zest for life, wasn't really thinking about TMS shit.

I'm grateful that I even have days where it's gone but the problem is that I try to re-create the mentality or circumstances that I had on those days. Which I'm sure is not only not productive but also telling my brain that I need to 'fix' something. And it's like if I 'try' to distract myself, my brain doesn't fall for it - it has to be a genuine feeling that I cannot re-create.

Anyone experience things like this? Do I have to let go of the trying to re-create feelings and analyzing my mindset on certain days?

 

That pattern’s actually really common in TMS recovery. When we’re naturally absorbed in life or feeling safe, symptoms often switch off completely. It’s not random — it’s the brain relaxing its guard. Then as soon as we start watching or analysing, it thinks, “Uh oh, danger again,” and turns the protection back on.

It’s totally natural to want to recreate the good days, but that effort keeps the brain in fixing mode. Instead, the trick is to meet both kinds of days with the same calm attitude: grateful when things ease, gentle when they don’t. If symptoms pop up, just remind yourself, “I’m safe, nothing needs fixing,” and carry on.

Over time, the brain learns that safety isn’t something you have to earn — and those easy days start coming more often on their own.

 

Thanks, I like how you say "safety isn’t something you have to earn". I definitely have the toxic mindset of thinking I have to DO things in order to get results.

 

This was extremely helpful to me b/c this first happened when I still had those doubts about whether it was really TMS, or all TMS. This was such incredible evidence that I could point back to when those doubts and squirrely thoughts would get into my head.

 

Not much to add except I’m also experiencing this at the moment. Just had two pretty great days and then at the very end of one —a symptom came back. I do think it had something to do with stress and some conditioning from expecting pain with kneeling/crouching which I had been doing earlier. But I expect it will pass just as it always does, and this time I’m trying to ignore it or at least not respond with fear.

Of course I’m not good at ignoring it yet, but I’m hoping that will come with practice and next time I’ll be a little better.