Day 6&7

Over day 6 and 7 I noticed an important shift in how I relate to myself and my symptoms. Day 6 was a self-care day, and instead of actively “working” on recovery, I allowed myself to slow down and simply check in with how I was doing. I noticed how helpful this program is in creating daily awareness and taking a moment each day to reflect on how I feel and what I’m carrying, without judgment or urgency.

On day 7 I experienced a strong moment of practice in real life. I had a panic attack in the sauna, with familiar sensations of internal pressure and shortness of breath. Instead of leaving or trying to control the symptoms, I reminded myself that my body is healthy, strong, and not in danger. I focused on slow exhalation and stayed present. I told myself there was nothing I needed to fix. I stayed in the sauna, and afterward I felt genuinely glad that I didn’t leave. This experience helped me see that panic does not equal danger, and that I can tolerate these sensations without reinforcing fear.

Alongside this, I started writing an unsent letter to my ex, reflecting on what was harmful to me in that toxic dynamic. I became more aware of how my own personality traits like perfectionism, excessive responsibility, and always putting others first were not only present but were also reinforced in that relationship. Seeing this on paper felt clarifying rather than overwhelming.

What stands out to me is that this process is helping me become more open and honest in my current relationship. Even though that still feels vulnerable at times, my honesty is met with understanding, and I feel seen. That sense of safety makes a meaningful difference for me.