Day 4 day 4

In October 2015, I met a pain management doctor. At that time pain was really bad and I was on narcotics which did not seem to have any effect other than making me feel drowsy. In addition, I was doing myofascial therapy which includes dry needling which adds to the pain initially. I was quite disparate for any form of relief when I talked to the doctor.

He told me that it is going to be like this and I must learn to live with the pain. In addition, he said he has travelled the world and I have seen the best of physiotherapist and that I am needlessly getting concerned as there are a number of people like me.

I have been through a similar issue earlier when I had been having pelvic pain in 2006. I actually met a doctor Stanford who had said the same thing and also added for good measure that I would be completely disabled and dependent on other people so I should prepare for it. In fact, that possibly let my ex know that I was of not much use to her anymore as I was not earning money and led to her affair with her co-worker at work.

But I did recover and worked for 5 years before falling sick again. So this time I was not quite disheartened. More than that, I was completely exhausted because they did not seem to be any way forward. I have had pelvic pain earlier which was intractable and at that time, neck and back pain used to be at least solvable because so many people had it and there were so many things to try. Here I was again after 5 years stuck yet again on what to do. I knew about TMS but I had no energy to get on the computer so at that time I was looking for temporary relief and become a bit functional


In any case, a physiotherapist help me out and the doctor with all his fancy degrees was proven at least partially wrong.


I'm comparatively better now than the state where I was unable to open doors or turn taps. But the fact that I'm unable to work and the consequent financial stress and my friends and well-wishers are losing their patience on having to offer continuous support has started to affect my morale. The struggle continues...

 

Hi browndogsisinthehouse,

I would suggest you see a good TMS doctor for a diagnosis. Once you have been diagnosed with TMS, much of your fear and stress about symptoms will be eliminated. There is a list here:
http://www.tmswiki.org/ppd/Find_a_TMS_Doctor_or_Therapist

I don't mean this instead of the SEP, but in support of the SEP. The SEP is a wonderful way to explore your experience.

Andy B

 

Thank you for your response. I no longer reside in the US. Are any of these practitioners willing to communicate via Skype or on telephone

After my earlier pelvic pain episode that lasted for 3 years from 2007 to 2010, I moved out from US because I could no longer afford the health care after the divorce and bankruptcy.

I was actually going to move back in May 2015 but then the pain hit me in January 2015. Sometimes I think that may be since I was mentally preparing to move back, therefore somehow the subconscious does not like the idea because what if there is similar pain issues again.

But now for sure I will not be able to move back because once again my finances are in a disarray and I do not think any insurance company will give me health insurance anyway with my complex medical history.

BY that logic the subconscious got what it wants and I should not have any pain but unfortunately the struggle continues. I'm still trying to discover the reason through journalling.

 

Hi browndogisinthehouse,

I am also on Day 4. Congratulations! I looked at the list of practitioners. If you scroll down on the same link, you'll see several that are listed who do use skype or even just telephone.

What has helped me the most is reading the books by Dr. Sarno. It really helps to get into the books because all the insights in there build upon each other. I read Healing Back Pain in December and it completely healed my back pain. Now I am challenged with a different expression of symptoms, which I hope to conquer by reading Dr. Sarno again and really working on the emotional side of things.

Good luck!