cookieheals
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I'd say that what's helped me the most, was watching this healing testimony: https://www.awmi.net/video/series/healing-journeys/?episode=former-male-stripper-healed-of-incurable-chronic-pain-richard-waller (Healing Journeys - Andrew Wommack Ministries)
I am a believer in Christ, and the biggest hurdle for me in this journey was believing that the pain was not structurally caused, but indeed physical, despite my faith. My faith has always been an 'add on' to my life, and believing that I am healed simply because Jesus said so, and overcoming the fear of physical activity was hard, because big chunks of me did not think that I could trust God, which is why He has only been an add on.
This was hardest for me for my big toe whose seismods were injured, but whose pain dramatically reduced after I renewed my mind about healing and prayed over myself. Like 85% better, actually, when I was headed for surgery. Still, I've had persistent fear about the toe, reinjuring it, and/or fear of damaging myself in activity. Lots of fear going on.
Anyway, since I (believe that I am Healed according to the Bible, engaging with TMS has been interesting because the foundation is the same. "You are well. There is nothing physically wrong with you," are essential in both. Whether I get to that faith through Christ or through TMS, the foundation is the same. "We are healed, there is nothing wrong with us."
What was so powerful for me in this testimony, is that the guy had chronic back pain, and then he went to a prayer conference, and was prayed for and in that moment, believed that he was healed. He actually said in the video that after he believed, he still had pain, "But I knew the pain was a distraction. It was a distraction from the truth, and the truth was that I was healed,"
Which is literally the foundation of understanding TMS- it is a distraction. The symptoms are a distraction, always.
So I had been struggling with, 'how can I say that the pain is not structural, when I'm not 100% sure that it isn't?' and this testimony made me realize- IT DOESN'T MATTER.
Whether it is really structural, like this man's case, or it isn't, the fact is that either way, I am healed, and the pain is a distraction. The fact that he had never heard of TMS yet understood that the pain was a distraction, was proof enough for me to stop chasing the 'is this structural or is it not' thought, and decide, 'it doesn't matter. I am healed, and because I am healed, it is a distraction'.
That was huge for me.
I am a believer in Christ, and the biggest hurdle for me in this journey was believing that the pain was not structurally caused, but indeed physical, despite my faith. My faith has always been an 'add on' to my life, and believing that I am healed simply because Jesus said so, and overcoming the fear of physical activity was hard, because big chunks of me did not think that I could trust God, which is why He has only been an add on.
This was hardest for me for my big toe whose seismods were injured, but whose pain dramatically reduced after I renewed my mind about healing and prayed over myself. Like 85% better, actually, when I was headed for surgery. Still, I've had persistent fear about the toe, reinjuring it, and/or fear of damaging myself in activity. Lots of fear going on.
Anyway, since I (believe that I am Healed according to the Bible, engaging with TMS has been interesting because the foundation is the same. "You are well. There is nothing physically wrong with you," are essential in both. Whether I get to that faith through Christ or through TMS, the foundation is the same. "We are healed, there is nothing wrong with us."
What was so powerful for me in this testimony, is that the guy had chronic back pain, and then he went to a prayer conference, and was prayed for and in that moment, believed that he was healed. He actually said in the video that after he believed, he still had pain, "But I knew the pain was a distraction. It was a distraction from the truth, and the truth was that I was healed,"
Which is literally the foundation of understanding TMS- it is a distraction. The symptoms are a distraction, always.
So I had been struggling with, 'how can I say that the pain is not structural, when I'm not 100% sure that it isn't?' and this testimony made me realize- IT DOESN'T MATTER.
Whether it is really structural, like this man's case, or it isn't, the fact is that either way, I am healed, and the pain is a distraction. The fact that he had never heard of TMS yet understood that the pain was a distraction, was proof enough for me to stop chasing the 'is this structural or is it not' thought, and decide, 'it doesn't matter. I am healed, and because I am healed, it is a distraction'.
That was huge for me.
