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[JR0923]

Hello everyone! I am so excited to be here and start this journey. I'm a 28 year old male who was very active and healthy until summer 2014. For the past 2 years, I've been dealing with chronic right hip pain - specifically deep in my right posterior buttock and in my right groin. The pain is the worst while sitting but I experience the pain every day (all day) with a variety of activities and resting positions. I underwent many conservative treatments with no success and ended up having right hip joint FAI and labral tear surgery in March 2015. I had a standard recovering for the first 9 months going through recap and have minimal buttock pain (even while sitting!). In December 2015, the pain came back just the way it was before surgery.

For the past year, I have had 10 different diagnostic and/or steroid injections, 6 months of physical therapy, and visiting multiple top physicians (Orthopedic, Neuro, Physical Medicine and Rehabilitation). I have no obvious structural abnormalities and doctors simply do not know what to do - but yet I'm hear in daily pain.

On December 14th, I went for a first visit with a ROLFer in Minneapolis where I live - he listened to my story and asked me about my personality. This guy is a TMS success story and has had a 100% success rate sending 31 of his clients to Sarno's MindBody Prescription book. I'm ready to be his 32nd! I got the book that day, finished the book a week later on December 21st. I'm now on my personal journey to accept the sometimes difficult idea of TMS.

I believe in the idea of my physical pain being the result of my repressed emotions. My personality profile is pretty much a perfect match as what Sarno describes in the MindBody Prescription. The deep buttock pain makes perfect sense to me, but I am still caught up in the pain (tightness and sometimes a sharp shooting pain) in my groin. Hip specialists have drilled into my mind that this is most likely due to cartilage damage inside of my hip joint and the sharp pain is a pinching sensation. I need to get past this idea in my head.

I was a passionate long distance runner constantly dreaming of finishing work and going outside to push my body and mind to the limits. I have not run in over a year and have not run pain free in over 2.5 years. I have fear in physical activity and know that deep down I am extremely angry/sad that I'm not able to run and do what I love the most.

I do believe that TMS is my true diagnosis but I also have some fears and structural thoughts I still need to get rid of.

Thank you all for the support! I am so excited and so committed to finding a 'cure'. It will be life changing. I need to get back to my life as it was before chronic hip/buttock pain.

 

[Andy Bayliss]

Hi JR,
Welcome to the forum and the Wiki too! You might actually start with the TMS Recovery Program, then go to the SEP. Great recordings, skills, orientation in that program that will serve you over time, and in the SEP.

Like so many here, and you, I went through many years of searching and suffering. I was in wheelchair and crutches for getting anywhere farther than the bathroom! For several years. I stopped just short of surgery... I spent 20k in one year on alternative treatments and jet plane rides to experts, most of whom wanted to operate.

I need to get back to my life as it was before chronic hip/buttock pain.

It is possible and probable!! I think, based on what you're saying, this approach is what you've been looking for.

Here is me, after recovery, and my thoughts were very dark at times, fearing that I might never recover.

http://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/skiing-two-years-after.14222/ (Skiing Two Years After)

Having welcomed many people here, I want to make some suggestions: You will find your own way in this work. It can be seen as a wonderful opportunity to become closer to yourself. I have seen this many many times in clients and forum members. Attune to yourself, be patient, be open to learning more about what makes you tick. Be patient. You do not have to change yourself to work this "miracle" in you. Inquire into your doubts gently. Hold your anger with self-compassion. Understand and learn to work more skillfully with your Inner Critic and the habits you know yourself by. Knowledge and confidence is key, rather than "trying to fix, change or reject" ---which patterns probably got us into this TMS experience.

Andy B

 

[Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)]

Hi, JRO923. Andy has given you excellent advice. Medical checkups have not found anything structurally wrong with you, which to me sure means your pains are from TMS, repressed emotions, and/or a perfectionist and goodist personality.

I had a Rolfer treatment years ago, from back ache. It hurt even more afterward.

And surgery often does not end pain, as Dr. Sarno writes. It is psychological, from some things that we try not to think about. Our subconscious wants us to think about them and then we heal. It's amazing but it works, with total 100 percent belief in TMS.

Good luck surfing in 2017.