donavanf
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I've had TMS my whole life, since childhood. In 2014, I had a chronic headache on and off (mostly ON) for a year following an emotionally traumatic trip with triggering family members and all hell breaking loose in my subconscious mind. The trip basically unearthed years of repressed rage, but since I am a classic Superego/Superman/Perfectionist/Goodist, my body created pain instead of me feeling emotions or expressing my anger. From 2014-2015, I saw every kind of doc imaginable and had CT scans and all kinds of other tests that ruled out anything physical, and I finally discovered Sarno's work, and saw a TMS doc (Dr. Schechter) who confirmed TMS, 100%. The headache vanished and became chronic shoulder and neck pain which FINALLY got much better after I insisted on an MRI of my neck, which was perfectly normal. It returned a few months later and comes and goes now. For the last few months, my physical symptoms have lessened. I have felt a LOT of depression and anxiety, but far fewer physical symptoms. About a week ago, I banged my head into the corner of an open cabinet. Didn't black out, but had a bit of a bump on my head for a day or so, and a headache. Right after I banged my head, a MOUNTAIN of anger came up. I screamed and cussed and broke a paper towel holder and felt SO angry. I told myself to calm down and relax and called my doc and he said I was probably fine, but watch out for signs of concussion...things like severe nausea or vomiting, cognition problems, sudden sleepiness, etc. I was ok, but a little queasy the next day or two. I then went to "Dr. Google" and convinced myself that I had a concussion, and probably internal brain bleeding. I am a SEVERE hypochondriac, to say the least. To go back to 2014, I had a misdiagnosis (later rectified) that I had hydrocephalus, which turned out to be all wrong, and ruled out by neurologist. Since my banging my head, I went to see my doc, and he gave me a full neurological exam (normal), told me that yes, I might have a mild concussion, and just to take it easy and not worry, my body will heal. I have had even more nausea and headache since my doc told me I might have a concussion, despite it passing for a day or so, it has now returned. I am terribly, terribly anxious, and I feel like I have a TON of emotion under the surface. I cried a bit today, and the headache and nausea IMMEDIATELY disappeared.
Is this TMS again? My head feels EXACTLY the same headache, in EXACTLY the same spot where I had my YEAR long headache in 2014. It doesn't even hurt exactly where I banged it, but where it hurt in 2014? Like somehow my body remembers the TMS pain I had before, and it is repeating itself to frighten me. It's working. I am frightened.
WHY, even though I know that I have TMS, do I keep scaring myself and telling myself that I am dying? I am Catastrophizing. I know this, yet I persist in doing it, like a habit.
I sound like a crazy person, has anyone else with TMS every felt like they were LOSING their mind? Is Catastrophizing a frequent TMS trait?
Also, my head DOES hurt, and I may very well have a mild concussion. But why, even after having my doctor tell me that I am going to be fine, do I think I am dying? My doctor told me that because my neuro exam was normal, and that I had no black out or vomiting, even if I have a concussion, it is very mild, and will heal. Yet I fear the worst! Any help is appreciated. I feel like a nut job.
Is this TMS again? My head feels EXACTLY the same headache, in EXACTLY the same spot where I had my YEAR long headache in 2014. It doesn't even hurt exactly where I banged it, but where it hurt in 2014? Like somehow my body remembers the TMS pain I had before, and it is repeating itself to frighten me. It's working. I am frightened.
WHY, even though I know that I have TMS, do I keep scaring myself and telling myself that I am dying? I am Catastrophizing. I know this, yet I persist in doing it, like a habit.
I sound like a crazy person, has anyone else with TMS every felt like they were LOSING their mind? Is Catastrophizing a frequent TMS trait?
Also, my head DOES hurt, and I may very well have a mild concussion. But why, even after having my doctor tell me that I am going to be fine, do I think I am dying? My doctor told me that because my neuro exam was normal, and that I had no black out or vomiting, even if I have a concussion, it is very mild, and will heal. Yet I fear the worst! Any help is appreciated. I feel like a nut job.
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