richard_lt

i've been managing wrist pain for 20 years, later got back and feet pain last 10 years. In my case carpal tunnel surgery didnt help. i left my programming career in 2014 i was in so much pain. I came accross dr sarno's work in 2014 and didnt believe it. I went to Rusk for phys therapy and when they told me about mindbody I was so sceptical and angry A few years later started reading sarno's 'divided mind' and started feeling better, I didnt finish the book. Now i want to solve the other parts of my body in pain (feet, back), now hands hurt 90% less. I struggle believing

Based on therapy, sarnos's book and gabor mate books, I was not taking care of myself physically (working w/o pauses, breaks, ergonomics) and emotionally, i tend to isolate, be a do gooder/people pleaser (not knowing to say no or manage difficult emotions in healthy ways). my wrist pain is 90% gone, back/feet pain 40% better. I am now experimenting with painacademy and IFS/cbt counseling.

Now I started taking courses to transition to a career in proj mgt after 10 years of leaving full time work (been doing part time work odd jobs, and parenting) I am afraid of going back to work, aggravating pain, scared of socializing, failing, judgement, not being good enough at my job, pain affecting my work and having to leave again. I am ashamed of leaving my job abruptly in 2014, i likely hurt many people. I miss some of my coworkers, i lked them so much and i have been so ashamed i isolated and lost those connections.