Recent content by Liz Ocean

I think the most distressing messages I've gotten from doctors, etc., about this is that is WAS all in my head, but in a dismissive sense like 1) just change/stop and 2) there's nothing anyone can help you with/you sort of suck. It was and is in my mind and body and history (trauma) and culture...

Leaving that imperfect, enough, is so hard. Not about my control. About acceptance--in so many ways. <3 LOL. Instructions... Re "acceptance you have of the TMS diagnosis, and of any doubts or worries you may have at this point"--just worried it won't work. I don't want to be part of the pain...

I'm in some intense postpartum back pain and feel like I'm missing out on holding my child. This is especially hard as I placed my first child in an "open" adoption, the agreements of which were not honored. My pain also evokes childhood trauma where I felt like an outside watching others have...