Recent content by justlikezeus

Yes, I feel like all my thoughts are about how much I want my symptoms to go away and how much I can't do this anymore. The feelings are overwhelming and my whole body is so tense. I will message you, thank you so much.

Hi, thank you, what do you mean by "tools"? And what do you mean by working with my body? I'm trying to do things I enjoy but my sympathetic nervous system is just always in fight or flight mode because of the pain and urgency and I'm feeling really discouraged.

I felt like I achieved a really good emotional release with my journaling today but I'm having trouble not reinforcing the fear of my symptoms. Every time I do a day and my symptoms don't improve I feel beaten down. My number one fear is my symptoms never going away. I want to live a life with...

I actually have a regular therapist in addition to the PRT therapist and yes, she's aware of my suicidal feelings.

I have been easing back into reading some erotica when my symptoms are not as bad (It's so funny, I say erotica to lend it a faint veneer of respectability but it's fanfiction) and that has been fulfilling. I do want to get back to writing, it's just hard because it really triggers my fear of my...

TTYD was actually one of my favorites I'm so glad they remade it. I'm not actually much of a gamer, really, but I also love Majora's Mask a lot!! I play more handheld games so I also really love the early Pokemon games (Crystal is my favorite) and Link's Awakening and Tetris is probably my...

This is hard for me because I feel like one of my flaws is that I'm too focused on doing whatever I want instead of doing what I'm supposed to be doing, so my initial response to this question is that I already do so many things that I enjoy but that's not really true. I spend a lot of time...

Thank you! I'm trying to get into this outcome independence mindset but it's hard!

I actually got really into exercise in the last year and a half. I stopped recently because I was living in a place where it was difficult to walk for exercise (my preferred method) and because I have been on levaquin since the beginning of January and was concerned about the risk for tendon...

Could you elaborate more on how you got rid of your pelvic symptoms? This is really great I'm so glad you're feeling better!

At this point I need a crutch but I'll definitely keep this in mind. I have always had a hard time meditating.

how did you know I always go to guided meditation?? why do you say to avoid?