Recent content by itsallinurhead

Looking back at my childhood, I think social anxiety issues are a major factor in some potential traumatizing experiences. There isn't any one particular event that is jumping out at me right now, but my entire childhood, more or less through high school, was filled with social fear and anxiety...

I can sympathize with so much of the stuff that you mentioned in your post. When you said "I wonder if I'm doing these things to myself to prevent me from being happy, or successful or whatever" that really is something I strongly identify with. From what you wrote, I get the feeling you still...

My experiences with doctors and other health professionals have been pretty limited compared to some people. I went to a chiropractor for my back and he basically reinforced the story I was telling myself about the back pain being caused by weight lifting. I kept seeing him for adjustments over...

Since I got back to thinking about TMS a few days ago it has made a huge difference in my ability to practice martial arts. I touched on this in my day one post, but my TMS was manifesting as knee pain that came up whenever I practiced the martial art bagauzhang. Doing this martial art is one of...

I'm an INTP. Have not read The Outsider, but I will have to check it out since this is the second day in a row someone has recommended Colin Wilson and I have always felt like an outsider. I definitely have an artistic side. As a child I was a very good artist, although I gave that up a long...

Just gonna go ahead and do my journaling here. Three things that make me feel angry are: I pissed off at society that I don't have a fulfilling career. I feel like the world just doesn't want to use me and that I don't have a place in it. Growing up I did extremely well in school, went to a...

Hey Chris, I know what you mean about being afraid of what the TMS is trying to hide. Really, what can be so bad that hiding it justifies all this never ending pain? Really though, I think it will feel much to get whatever it is out in the open so we can finally heal.

I read one of Dr. Sarno's books about a year ago and it immediately made sense to me and provided some relief from the upper back pain I was having at that time. TMS is really ingenious in how it moves around the body and slides in along with an activity that could plausibly cause injury. Back...