Recent content by Coffeeplease

I totally understand what you mean, and it's the perfectionist mentality. You don't sound ridiculous at all. The competitiveness, wanting to doing something perfectly, be the best. It's a lot of pressure to put on yourself (I do this too). Keep up the great work and thinking about why you...

I understand what you're saying. I love massages. Originally I started seeing a massage therapist to help relieve intense shoulder pain, neck pain and tension. Knowing what I do now, I was suffering from TMS. However, I would love to get a massage again, because it's so relaxing and quiets...

I'm right with you @yvettemariabetancourt! You articulated so well the same feelings I experienced at the end of the year. I wrote down my daily list of things I'm grateful for, that I have the power to find the "real me" free from fear, worry, self hatred, depression over what I've lost. I...

This is wonderful! I seem to be doing well with feeling and experiencing, acknowledging the rage. Now I just need to find the way to let it go....which I'm discovering takes continued practice and patience.

Happy New Year! Hugs and peace for you and everyone else this coming year. May we all find the path to healing, have hope, give self love, and be free from pain... The holidays are certainly a mixed bag of emotions. It is easy to fall into a trap of an idea of what the "perfect holiday"...

Thank you @keenie82, and I will remember that...and being grateful for what I do have. I have to remind myself that feeling this crazy mixed bag of emotions is a good thing, and trying not to hide or bury them. Wishing you peace and healing and hugs back to you!

Thank you so much Cheryl, I appreciate it more than you know! And sending one back to you....this site and the community support helps so much.

Thank you so much for the hug! Much needed today and I will keep reminding myself that this is all TMS and learning to deal with the emotions in the best way I can.

@Pemberley, thank you so much for this post. I am really intrigued by EMDR. I wish I could afford/had insurance coverage for therapy. I too woke up at 4 this morning. This happens for me 2-3 times a week. Funny/ironic because last night my legs were tremendously tight and aching/painful. I...

@candysworld, I'm going to steal that self-talk. I especially love "I don't need my brain to protect me from my humanity". Awesome, thank you for sharing this!!

@Rachel72, that is wonderful advice! @stevow7 , do you have a hobby or interest that you can do when you are awake in the middle of the night? Or as @Rachel72 said, lie there and let your body rest, try to relax your mind as much as you can and not worry about not sleeping. There was a point...

Thank you @Andy B! It may sound strange, but I consider my TMS to be a gift and an opportunity to open a new door and chapter to my life, free from physical and psychological pain. I only hope I can help @savasana and others on their journey in any way I can. Everyone approaches this process...

Complete acceptance of the symptoms, do not fight it, do not be afraid.

I can totally relate to what you're expressing, and great job writing it out here. It's tough to write out feelings when you can't find your "voice". Do you also feel like you are still trying to figure out who you really are? That's what I struggle with and your story rings with the same...

I can completely understand where you are at right now, please don't feel alone. For me, I was terrified of all of my symptoms...and then I got mad :) Mad at people who had hurt me, mad at my pain, really really angry. I think when I started to feel that way towards the pain and anxiety...