Question to ponder: What was the most disheartening thing a doctor has told you about your symptoms? In what ways have you kept that in your mind? Hearing that there was no physical reason for the numbness and tingling I’ve had in my left hand and foot for nearly 30 years was certainly disheartening. It made me feel crazy and angry that the neurologist had no ideas. Then she treated me like a semi-criminal for asking for Vicodin. That made me angry and self-conscious. More recently, being told that the epidural injections help about two-thirds of people “lower” their pain, many not permanently, was also pretty depressing and discouraging. Today I went out for another 45 minute walk around my neighborhood. Still lots of leg pain and lot of stopping, but I had some stretches in which the pain was mild and I stopped giving myself grief if I need to stop. I did some journaling before I went out and played some sad music. It triggered some old, painful memories for me and for five minutes or so I saw weeping on someone's low stone wall. Felt good to really cry for a while, a release. I hope to do more walking and emoting tomorrow.