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Symptom Imperative Success

Discussion in 'Success Stories Subforum' started by nowtimecoach, Apr 12, 2014.

  1. nowtimecoach

    nowtimecoach Well known member

    I wanted to share about the wildest experience I had with a symptom imperative yesterday. I recently made the decision to drop a major responsibility in my life that was volunteer in nature. Through the TMS recovery work, I could see how my personality trait of being a goodist was feeding this responsibility. I could also sense the pressure I was creating with trying to meet the needs of this obligation. My recovery from pain has been, in my opinion, slow and so I keep trying new workbooks suggested on the forum to keep on top of this new healing awareness.

    For some reason, could be the new book, could be its just time….but I feel like I've made some major strides in capturing those moments where I am creating stress or pressure for myself. After I dropped this commitment, the pain in my back went away. Full scale 100% AWAY. It has been months since I've had a pain free day (altho the pain is waaaay lessened from the beginning days!!!) As you all know, there is no greater feeling to be pain free for any moment after being in chronic pain!

    So yesterday, I did not do what I committed myself to doing (an opportunity to beat myself up.) I started stressing about a party for 30 people that my partner and I are going to give next weekend (increasing anxiety.) I noticed myself feeling vague and distracted, not in my body (opportunity to beat myself up for not being present.) Then I went to a movie I didn't want to see and DURING the movie, I am catching myself yelling and berating my actions - for not staying home and working and its a crappy movie and what am I doing here anyway….blah, blah, blah. I totally took the train of thought to a trainwreck. And guess what happened? My foot of all things started killing me. To the point I could barely walk out of the theatre. I had done absolutely nothing physical to cause the pain.

    By the time I got home, I was in screaming pain for my foot. Couldn't lay it down, hurt to put ice on it… I kept thinking about Herbie's story to being in hospital and trying desperately to keep the focus that it was TMS. I remembered Walt telling us all the time to find something funny to laugh at. Every time I had a thought or worry that it was going to last - that I should go to the hospital, I tried focusing on something else. I bounced my other leg up and down to place my attention on it. I watched a comedy show on TV. I will admit that I took advil because frankly if it was going to be a placebo, I WANTED it!!

    I just kept telling myself that my thoughts of anxiety and criticism were underneath this pain. That I could handle it. That everything will probably be better tomorrow. And guess what? It is! I can easily walk on my foot. I am staying home to take care of what I didn't do yesterday and I'm spending some time in meditation loving and accepting myself just the way I am right now.

    I wouldn't have been able to hold on the TMS recovery thoughts if I hadn't read all your posts and learned from your experiences. I thank you over and over for your participation! PS - and the pain in my back is still gone!
     
  2. Walt Oleksy

    Walt Oleksy Beloved Grand Eagle

    Great news, nowtimecoach. You fed yourself healing positive thoughts and the foot pain went away.

    Yesterday I got a letter from the IRS that I owed a lot of money and it stressed me out. I yelled and
    then calmed down and laughed. It's only money, I told myself.

    Then I told myself I could handle it and switched my thinking to something positive and it perked me up
    right away.

    Also, about a week ago my "goodist" side prompted me to offer a relative help in getting her book
    published. I should have known better. It added another job to my already full schedule.
    She's eating me alive, pushing some of the work onto me that she should be doing.

    I won't offer anyone such help again. I really had no idea she is so incompetent.

    I'm telling myself the end is in sight and I'll have helped someone. But I won't do it again!
     
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  3. Eric "Herbie" Watson

    Eric "Herbie" Watson Beloved Grand Eagle

    Oh I love this, You got it nowtimecoach. You know what to do, sooo awesome. I love the way you put it all together. How can anyone add anything to how you recovered. You did it perfectly. You got the bull by the horns now, you know exactly what to do. You are a success. You have been a success the whole time you been here. I am so grateful to have you as a friend with your perseverance and enthusiasm theirs nothing you can't do.
    Blesssss You.
     
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  4. tigerlilly

    tigerlilly Well known member

    That's really excellent, nowtimecoach! Congratulations - sounds like you are on the road to success!!
     
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