I’m having trouble overcoming the symptom imperative. I’m 25 years old, and medically/physically speaking my body and health are great. However, how I feel does not reflect the scans and tests I’ve had on my body. I’ve had TMS for 3 years, but I’ve only discovered it to be TMS last year. I’ve had a number of symptoms come and go. My main symptom has been abdominal pain but I have learned to ignore it very well. My goal with my TMS journey is to not let any symptom scare me out of physical activities. I have improved so much after discovering TMS, but I still have doubts and setbacks. I used to be heavily into physical fitness/sports. Ever since I developed my pains/symptoms however, that all changed. But I did slowly work my way back into physical activities. First, I swam then I walked for about 6 months, then I worked up the courage to finally go back into the gym and try cardio. I was doing quite well for about 3 weeks at the gym, but my mind kept trying to scare me into pain. I ignored it. Then I started to develop knee pain after my workouts. I’ve never had knee pain before so I was very confused! I ignored it again and that was that. Now for the TMS of this all - A little over a month ago my close friend passed away. This was so sudden. I have made so much progress in my life in terms of letting go of past situations that hurt me deeply. Now, as I have been on a much more positive path, I got hit with something very difficult to face. Although it has been hard, I am still applying the TMS concepts to dealing with grief. It’s interesting because the knee pain started when I found out he go into a car accident. At that point there was still hope that he would make it and recover, however about a week and a half later of being in a medically induced coma, he passed away. So that whole week and a half was very up and down for me. After he passed away, I definitely noticed that my knee pain got much worse and it persists till this day. Somehow my mind still wants to tell me that it hurts because I hadn’t worked out on an elliptical machine in so long and so my muscle wasn’t used to the activity. It’s crazy because every time I get a new symptom, I want to believe it’s TMS but I still have my underlying doubts. What do you guys think this is? Any suggestions on how to deal with this? I was doing so well with progressing through physical activity. I don’t want another setback to keep me away from that progress. At the same time I do think I've been attempting to deal with this emotional pain as best I could. I cry when I need to cry and I talk about him when I need to. I'm not sure what else I can do.