i've been jogging through this entire episode and it's been a huge source of pleasure for me. I've felt so proud that I've been able to say "it's just TMS" and have actually not had any negative issues. This is because THERE IS NOTHING STRUCTURALLY WRONG WITH ME!! And I believe this. I also started back in therapy and have been working the SEP and have started to feel much better - or at least more in touch. However I have been avoiding the wonderful community center where I have been exercising for years. I had been going there - it was my "happy place" - a place where my exteneded family goes, a place where I really feel that I belong. I think that I haven't wanted to see people - it's easier to jog alone. I went back today for the first time in a few months, and I had to leave due to the pain. I think I was triggered by being in a happy place and still feeling sad. I'm not good at feeling sad. Feeling that level of pain and not being able to work through it with my Sarno mantras and tools really was upsetting. I guess I'm not as far along as I thought I was. Again, I've been running the whole time so I know that there is no explanation for being in this level of pain from a few toe touches. I'm so humbled from all of this.