You all know this situation: you were doing fine for the last 8 months and then bam! From January to July I was doing well, then a week or so with bladder pain. I did the meditations Dr. Schubiner guides ( his voice is really smooth and one feel safe). I addressed some of my repressed anger issues. And then I was doing fine again. Since August I had a period were I had to work 70 hours per week and still I could not finish my tasks right in time. Last week Saturday it was there again, the pain. Of course I can figure out that I had too much work, starting really to be stressed. Then I start to envy all other people for their wonderful life. And see myself as a victim. But it was me who accepted all these projects and articles. I cannot blame others for that. So, I am anxious to say no to tasks. And I know this for some time. When do I ever learn to make a better planning? The worst thing is: I think I am afraid of being alone, so when I am working I am connected to other people. But this is a vicious circle: I will not have a satisfying social life if I do not stop working all the time. And the next problem: sometimes I think I could feel good, just being on my own, with a house, a garden. But I actually feel like a looser. After my divorce (we were together for 23 years) my ex-husband married again only 2 years after the divorce. And now he has the children he never wanted with me. I feel exploited by him, he is a narcissist and simply used me to make his career. I am not missing him. But I am angry with myself that this has happened to me. How to let go? And when should one let go and when should one work with the anger and the shame? I know that the pain will go away, but it sucks anyway ... Greetings from Denmark!