I've been following the TMS structural program and am on day 15. I haven't done it everyday but have completed 14 days of it total. It's helped me realize some things that are bothering me in my life, for sure. Anyway, my main issue is urinary urgency. I can have a week where I feel 100% normal, no issues at all and I think to myself "YAY it's going away, finally!" Then I'll have a few days where it comes and goes. It all began back in December for me out of the blue. I have a history of UTI's since my early 20's, I'm 29 now. Basically, I can be feeling just fine, go use the restroom and come out with the feeling of needing to go again, the feeling, to me, feels like it's my urethra and not my actual bladder. It can be very mild or a little more than that. Sometimes it feels like if I could just squeeze out one more drop the feeling would go away. Usually, the feeling will start to pass in about 10 minutes to an hour or if it's at night, I fall asleep and wake up feeling back to normal. Like I said, this can happen everyday for 3-4 days, every other day, every 5 days etc. I've gone a week and 1/2 without it happening at all. The last few days have been bad days, I've been having symptoms on and off, and I've also noticed my anxiety is up as well. I'm in the middle of finals with school and for some reason my fear of IC is present. That is my biggest fear is interstitial cystitis. Ever since this all came about in December that has been my fear. It's on my mind pretty much 24/7. Sometimes I can distract myself from the thoughts and from my problem and not notice any of it but it's not often. I'll have weeks where I feel fantastic, not focus on it, carry on with life, and not think about it much then I have days like the last few where I'm dwelling on it, can't do anything else but google IC stuff and worry. I've always been a "worrier" I over analyze just about everything, especially my health. I've always had health anxiety. I've worried about heart attacks, cancers etc. This is probably the most I've worried though, don't think I've ever been so scared over something in my life. I also think I'm OCD. I've worked on that and it's better than it use to be but basically I can be walking down the street and I'll see a stick on the ground and I'll say to myself "if you don't go right of that stick, your symptoms will get worse." I feel so dumb admitting that but it's true. I do that often. I've been trying to fight that and not give in to it. I've never been officially diganoised with TMS, I just stumbled across it about a month ago and decided to give it a try. I have seen a OB/GYN and a urogynecologist about all of this. My OB did a yearly pap test and a vaginal ultrasound, came back normal. The urgogynecologist did a pelvic exam and took urine and did an in office dip test and said it was normal. I told her my fears of IC and she shook her head no at me and said "You don't have that" "You don't want that diagnosis." She told me to come back in a month if my symptoms persisted. That was at the end of February and I haven't gone back. Mainly because I'm scared of having the tests and worst, the results. I think she felt this wasn't anything though or she would've suggested the tests. The office came highly recommended and they seemed to know what they were doing. Anyway, sorry to ramble, I'm just so lost and lonely and terrified. Can anyone give me some advice? Does this sound like TMS, something physical, both? I don't know.