I’ve been on this TMS journey for quite a few years now with minimal progress. I was wondering if some of you could help me answer this question that has been a big stumbling block for me. My back pain started 11 years ago after the birth of my daughter. It was a traumatic pregnancy and premature birth (thankfully, she is healthy). There is no physical reason for my lingering pain. From all of my TMS work, I know that I was triggered during this event because of: - childhood emotional neglect/abuse from narcissistic parents - doubts and fears about being able to be a good parent - the trauma of the pregnancy and birth itself - repressed anger about not having been able to fully live my own life yet - repressed anger about having to put someone else’s needs before mine (again) - repressed anger about succumbing to the pressure to get pregnant because others were telling me not to wait until I got too old Etc… This list could go on! With all this mental stuff brewing, I was given the drug Pitocin to speed up labor. Pitocin prevents your body from releasing its own endorphins (oxytocin) – its own way of relieving pain. It’s always been in the back of my mind that my brain got “stuck” that way because of the drug. If so, are these mind-body methods that we use to deal with TMS the only way out – even if it was possibly drug-induced? Is it possible to physically have something wrong with your brain that is causing symptoms? I feel like this is a huge barrier to acceptance for me – a part of me is still thinking that there is something “physically” wrong with my brain triggered by an actual drug and not only by my repressed rage. Thanks for any thoughts and suggestions!