Take a look at your journal entries. What emotions are most prevalent? I see a lot of shame and not feeling good enough or worthy. This stems from me being a perfectionist and then also having an addiction and not living up to my expectations for myself. I see a lot of stress from comparing myself to others in thinking what more I could do and how much harder I could work. There's a lot of anger, from what I perceive as some people in my life not treating me fairly.