Para-spinal muscle spasm, military neck

I have an issue, and I'm wondering if I should be pursuing it medically. As I've mentioned in other posts, I have MECFS. My neck is giving me profound issues as far as weakness and lack of endurance.


I don't do any exercises to specifically target the muscles of my neck as far as strengthening, because when I do, I find myself lying in bed for the better part of a week afterwards. As far as endurance, it comes and goes. There have been times when I've been up for blocks of several hours per day, several times per day, and then other times ability simply goes away. On x-ray, my para spinal muscles are in spasm. I don't have the normal lordotic curve. It's baffling.


Right now I'm out of bed once per day for about three hours.


I spoke with a physical therapist who does TMS coaching, and was told that my neck muscle should have enough endurance to support my head. I didn't see him in person, this is simply what I was told. Considering my head has always kind of jotted forward, and I do have the spasm issue, I wonder if I should contact a physiatrist in order to get this resolved. I know that neck muscle spasms are a very common manifestation of TMS, so there might simply be nothing I can do.


I tried taking muscle relaxants but they didn't do anything. I don't want to get addicted to muscle relaxers, so only took them for a couple days. It seems to me that if my para spinal muscles weren't in spasm, I might be able to sit up longer, and I might not have trapezius pain, etc.


On the other hand, this song might be TMS, and there might not be any solution, stretching, or otherwise. By the way, I have tried stretching, it doesn't really do anything. Also, I'm very tight over my entire body, as a result of 10


So, should I just forget about contacting the physiatrist, because I know he will interpret everything as having a physical cause, and just tell myself that my neck does have enough endurance and strength to hold my head up all day?


Thanks

 

I have been told I have these “abnormalities”. Stress can do a number on us, but the TMS work can unravel it over time. My body is beginning to let go of its habits that don’t serve me, but I first had to let go of the thoughts and mental habits that harm me.
Dan Buglio is an excellent example of a body that lets go of its habits and patterns with TMS work. He has pictures on his website of how visibly twisted he was.
Letting go of the physical, not worrying about the temporary things and focusing on the longer term things like the psychological and mindset will make a huge difference.
The free Structured Educational Program at TMSwiki.org (scroll down) and refreshing your reading on any book by Dr. Sarno will remind you that TMS is temporary.
Our TMS brain will often try to convince us of mental and physical weakness simply to keep us small and safe.
I was bed bound for almost 2 years. In the last 24 hours I’ve done some squats, weight lifting, walked 10 miles, lifted my heavy suitcase overhead and more.. and yet my mind has still tried to tell me I “can not” do these things. I refuse to listen to those messages.

 

thanks for the reply. Out of curiosity, how long did it take you to go from being bedbound to being able to do more or less normal things. This is to say, driving, making dinner, etc. How long did it take you before you were able to run at all, even just 100 feet? How long did it take you to get fully recovered once you started being out of bed?

the reason I ask all this, is that the recovery time might be less than what I'm envisioning for myself. I often find it discouraging to think that if I do everything right in terms of TMS work, etc., I'm looking at a long time before I can get back to doing what I really want to, just because of deconditioning

 

I don’t answer the how long question, it’s not relevant to your story, and can create an unwitting self-pressure. Let’s just say it is taking the time it needs. You need to drop expectations of timelines but still keep on reaching for the brass key. You need to push yourself to do the daily work but stop all pressure to heal - via timeline or with 100% perfection or whatever… just accept it’s temporary as long as you are doing the work it is temporary and you will heal. It might not be a linear path, but you’ll get there.